A more comfortable sight for Yanhui I hope :D


Life's been still the same these few weeks. March's gonna be a blast (in both good and bad way) for me. First week, results. Second week, SHINee. Third week, Super Junior. Wah, my heart cannot take the ups and down rides.

Made quite a few new friends these few weeks. Became amazingly close with some of them, or maybe few of them. Found joy in talking to old friends once again. It's like, when you are really close to someone, it really doesn't matter how long you haven't been talking to her? Talked to Yanhui several nights ago. It's amazing how we can find endless topics to talk about all the way till 4am and end up pretty much very dead the next day. But it's a feeling that I cherish a lot. It makes me feel that, I haven't lost this friend. You understand what I mean?


As compared to some people my age, I admit, I am still quite a crazy and immature being? I mean, I don't like to be all deep in thoughts all the time. I don't like to be the mature one all the time? It's like only in about one year's time that I am going to hit the big 2. I don't want to mature so fast. Because I don't want people to expect so much from me. You know?


I hate it that we are forced to grow up in this fast paced environment. I hate it that there are always some expectations to meet.

I was saying to some, the reason why am I so high all the time in front of others, is solely due to the fact that I don't like awkward situations. I don't like people to feel that they are not enjoying themselves when they are with me. That's why I am perpetually high. Low self-esteem much? I just wished that someone who understood me perfectly would just come by. So that I don't need to explain so much to them. Without me saying, they'll know how I feel, what I think deep inside.


I am going back to the days where I start to put on a false front.




I miss my girls a lot.