Sorry Sulynn!! Yesterday i promised her that i would be goin for the farewell thingy but i did not turn up. Because i found myself shivering this morning.

I kana flu and fever and sore throat. I am truly sorry. I hope she doesnt blame me. I think it was because of the long hours in the sun then i kana fever. and all the shouting.

Haix. I used to like drills but now. I dun hate it but i dislike it. Because i am suffering or rather we are suffering under the hot sun. nevermind.

I know i should jux accept it. And i shouldnt grumble cox all these are in God's plan. I suddenly realised how impt God is when everythin starts to go wrong.

God I am sorry for doubting you. I am so small compared to You. Your lurrve and Your grace. Thank you for placing people that wun give up on me in my life.

Thanks to Jeral for all the encouragement. Thanks to Huili for not giving up on me. Thanks to Sir for not scolding me or anything. Thanks everyone. I lurrve u ppl.


Yeahhhhh.. actually todae supposed to have tuition budden i poned it. Hahax. Wasnt really feeling like goin for some tuition. Sighs.

Saturdae band was fun lahx. Although there isnt drills. But i managed to play the whole song. Hahax. But notes abit off. But still.. Lurrve myself so much.

Lydia goin on holidae soon. Rachel oso. Horn section lesser and lesser ppl le. Haix. Then mux play louder. :( But no matter wadd i will still lurrve my french horn.

Oh yarrh. I created another fanfic. Hahax. I guessed i am too greedy. or should i say bored. nahx. It's on Sly and Daph. Dun u think they look cute together?

Esp. during the Top 4 Spectacular. Hahax. The mustafa MV. Kawaii neh. Go support kk? I will be posting the link soon. And Spore Idol Grand finals coming. Cant wait to watch it!

Go Sly go! Go Sly go!


Band todae was better than i expected. hmmx. but my scales was like totally out. sir kept on lookin and looking. freaks. sir can be damn scary.

but i could play the song quite well though. hahax. managed to catch the tempo le. but still a little too retard. shall practise. mux work hardd.

I was jux wondering. who would be Spore Idol. Hmmx. Hope is Taufik. Cox if Sly become Spore Idol then he would go on in World Idol.

Then he wun be in Spore. No! Cannot.. Hahax. Jux hope Sly will do his best. Rawk on Sly! U are an idol in my heart. Muackx. Hahax.


Woohoo. Todae i was surfing the net the whole dae. Or rather i was updating fanfic the whole dae. hahax. had nothin better to do.

Tomorrow there is gonna be band. hmmx. shall be serious and concentrate on my french horn. skills deproving. haix. i dunno. i am slacking again. :(

Band can be stressful esp. with sir ard. haix. haix. haix. jux hope tomorrow sir will be in a good mood. looking forward to cg though. treasure hunt!!

fanfic fanfic. my wurld is revolving ard fanfic. cox i started one with sylvester sim in it. hahax. madd. anyway, he is in top 2 now.

although i support him. but i dun want oli to get out too. she has good vocals. haix. i dunnoe. but i shall be loyal and support sly all the way. go sly go!


I am back to this sunny little island called Spore. I was back on Saturdae midnight le. budden my computer crashed so cannot use.

Hahax. Did u all miss me? Hmmx. i brought quite alot of things in Taiwan. Bought alot of souveiners too. Hahax. I did not go for sectionals.

Maybe because of the temperature change bahx. then i am not used to it. so i fell sick. sadd. i miss u ppl alot. :) Got to know a P5 person in the tour.

Well, she is funny. How i miss those daes in primary school. So stress free and fun. Haix. but sec school rawkx too. Shall ask people to go out with me somedae.

I am bored. Hahax. By the way, wadd did i miss in service or in band? Tell me. Kk. I shall move on now. Taiwan was jux simply cool. as in literally.

It was cold down there. hahax. my mum actually bought some star stone for me. it is blue. quite cute. cox as the light changes direction, the lines on the jewel will change too.

okay. then the food there was yum yum. i mean those local food. i made a chop with both my eng and chi name on it. cann chop textbook. hahax.

then saw those rocks that went through weathering. quite cool. there was one tat is in the shape of an elephant and one tat look like a human head.

and let me tell u. the mountains there are so darn high. i almost puked on my way up. the car was like zoom zoom. *pukes* bought CD there too. Cheap cheap!


I updated a lot of times cox i have too many things to say. so scroll down. I have learnt to lurrve ur neighbours.

I shall thank a few peepx. Shepherd, thank you for caring for me and thank you for ur reminders to ask me to go for service and caregrp.

Patricia, thank you for being such a nice buddy to be with and let us grow in the Lord together okie? i will be waiting for u.

Yiyou, thank you for typing out the sermon teaching for me. thank you for not giving up in asking me to go for service.

and to other peepx in church. thank you for being so friendly and make me feel like home. muackx. lurrve u ppl!!

not forgetting my frenx outside, thank you for accepting me as me. and i lurrve u all!! and to all my family tree, thank you for tolerating my temper. :)


hmmmx. things have changed so much. i suddenly realised. went for service and realised many things have changed.

but i know His lurrve is never changing. for the first time, i really felt his presence. thank you Lord for being there for me.

i was sadd. i was down. i was disappointed in people. but it was Him who picked me up. i realised He is the onli one who truly cares for me.

He never abandons me. When i felt lonely. When i felt rejected. He was the only one who was there for me.

When i felt tat this wurld is cold. When i felt there is no meaning in life. He showed me that people do care and people lurrve me.

Thank you Lord for being in my life. I could never thank u enough. Thank you for embracing this sinful child of yours.


well well.. hahx. I hugged sly. jealous?? well. i was like pondering whether to go serivce or the autograph session.

Jeral did not want to go with me so i decided tat i should go service. budden i was kinda like pushed inside the crowd while looking.

cox i saw Sherli fren. yah then see see then ppl started to queue behind. yes. and i never expected tat becox of tat i got on stage and i hugged them!! muackx!!

cool ritex? hahax. and i will be leaving for Taiwan tomorrow. yeah. but i cannot make it to watch the top 3 spectacular. sobx.

u all can sms me the results and help me tape it down. plx. and thankx. sms to 96920641 okie?? yes. i am happy. so. tat's it.

i think is god papa help me de wor. lurrve Him so much. Muackx. And service was great. and shepherd.. thank u for ur lurrve fer me. :)


Alrite. i am angry and jealous.. let me announce somethin.. TAN SHERLI MET SLY, HUGGED SLY, GOT HIS SIGNATURE, AND TOOK PIX WITH HIM..

okie. i offically announce i am gonna kill Sherli.. sobx. how on earth can she be so lucky? oh my god. sobx. sobx. sobx.

there u go. she spoilt my dae. sobx. i want to meet sly. that is my dream.. anyway.. i cried during Spore Idol todae.

Cox Sly and daphne were the last two and tat gurmit singh keep on keeping suspense!! i was so scared tat Sly would leave..

Then i cried. oh well. u all can say i am madd but i want Sly to win this. He really rawk. i lurrve him and i hope he sees this.


I am goin to go to Taiwan in a few daes time. woots.. i cant wait to get there. i am excited. well, todae i had a family day!!

I bought my mp3. then i went shoppin for clothes. hahax. i think i spent a bomb todae. my parents mux be so sadd.

pocket got hole le. i am goin to go Taiwan to shopp for alot of stuff. jux hope i get to see some ppl there. and i suddenly realised that my sis fren is workin at mediacorps.

can ask tat person help me get Singapore Idols finals de tix. hahax. jux hope my sis will help me with it.

and... SYLVESTER rawkx lahx. i lurrve him so much. he sang 'an jing' todae. OMG.. ahx.. i am melting.

and not forgetting the chubby Olinda. She is so ke ai.. i lurrve her too. Muackx. realli hope tat they can win SI. everyone has a good chance.

Hope neither SLY nor OLI gets out tomorrow.. plx vote for them. plx.. :)


Woots. I am back. Todae we had band. brass sectionals with sir. quite stressing i guess. i dunno. sir can be so freaky at times. but funni too.

went to far east after tat. went to cut my hair with lydia and vanessa. hahax. u know wad? vanessa said i looked like sylvester..

hahax. cox i wasnt wearing my glasses and my hair was covering one of my eye. hahax. they said i look like sly. is tat supposed to be a good or badd thing??

then went to kfc to eat. munch munch.. i am hungry again. never mind. i am tired. feel like sleeping. kk. shall go update my fanfic le. take care peepx.


todae i went out with lydia, vanessa and wanyan lolx. went to watch Princess Diaries II.. Yuppx. It was rather funny lahx.

then we went shopping for clothes. i bought a pink tee. it looks cute. hahax. we took neoprints oso. but tat machine cheat my feelings.

it said the pen is spoilt but actually is can use de lolx. humph! yahx. then i came back home and was like half sleeping.

packed my luggage tat i am goin to bring to Taiwan. rather heavy lahx. but still okay. i want to go to Taiwan to eat and shop.

Hahax. todae has been a very funny dae. had much laughter. at least my week ended well. oh! I am goin to buy books le. can start on homework sooner..


this week has been an emotional week for me. i have been drained off my energy. jux feel tired. but there are still things tat i had fun with.

well. i watched finish ren wo au you le. it was a happy ending. it was okay but i did not cry throughout the whole show. *proves tat not touchin enough*

and talked to kor over the phone a few daes back. very long never see yu qian le. wonder how she look like now. ahax. i forgot how she look. heehee.

and i finally sat down and watched singapore idol throughout. normally, i will jux watch halfway. and slyvester simply rawk. i lurrve him. muackx.

yuppx. tat's for my week. maybe things will be better and i really hope the next week will not be as emotionally draining as this one.


I am counting down to the daes where i get to go to Taiwan.. i really cant wait to go there. i dun feel like staying here.

I am tired. Someone.. hold me tight. the world seems to be spinning at a fast pace tat i cannot breathe. i really want to take a rest.

things have been so rushy. i feel so tired. as in both physically and mentally. people tat i know are changing. i know i am drifting away.

drifting away from the wurld, the people. i jux want to put myself into a container and throw it into the ocean.

i want to be in the water. in the water, there is no one to control me. in the water is where i find my real freedom.

tired. tired. tired.


Peek a boo! Hahax. i have changed my blogskin.. Heehee. Decided that the other one was too darkie le.. Hahax. Who knows. i am a flickle-minded person.

Anyway. things are like changing so fast without me realising. i am tired. i want to jux close my eyes and not think about anythin.

i want to run away from this wurld. it is getting colder and freakier.. i dun want to stay here. i want to leave this place.

someone. take me along.. i want to go to a place without any noise. any quarrels. i jux simply want to leave this cold place.

i cant wait to leave spore. i want to take a break. i feel suffocated. i dun have any breathin space. my family rawkx. i cant wait to leave with them. leave spore..