Haisho. tomorrow geog test ehh. nothing seems to be going into the head of mine. i shall just leave everything alone and not study.. i am so badd right?

i think i am turning into a typical lian. i think jeral would stay away from me if i really turned into one okayy. hahax. okayy.

i finally get to meet my cousin who came back from aust. hahax. and do u know wadd is the 1st thing he said to me?

he said i look more and more like a guyy. like wadever lorr. i think he never see before a bung ehh. okayy. i shall ask him to come to my school someday then cann show him.

yes yes. i am just getting madder and madder each second. i think i am like super pai kia now. i dunn feel like studying. i dunn feel like going to school.

lalalala. and pat is talking to me about her new found idol olivia. yes yes. she kept on saying she is cute. SHE IS NOT! i think pat is gonna kill me if she sees this.

okayy. i better go and sleep liao. i am so super tired. yawnx.


tan su lynn! i never bully wen lorr. is she bully me. u bias!! bleahhx. help her never help me. somemore help her bully me. haisho.

haish. but still i am starting to dread going to school. i am ignoring everyone i see. i am broken inside. cann someone help to fix back the jigsaw puzzle of my heart?

i am missing my sec one dayys. those days when we were still the youngest. so many people doted on us. i miss the ex leaders. i miss my psLs. i really miss them alot.

whyye do things have to change? whyye cannt they just remain the same? whyye? the word whyye is filling my whole headd. i am in no mood to do anything and everything.

shoo. go away depression. i dunn need u invading in my life with so many things happening.. depression go away. find some other people. go away!


sighhs. today has been quite a badd day fer me. But luckily we din have drills. I dunnoe but i just have a feeling that i am all alone in this wurld.

If i am dead the next dayy, would anyone cryy for me? Would anyone pray for me that i would go Heaven? Would anyone even bother?

I know people will find me very irritating to think so negatively but i cannot help it. This is the wayy i feel. Will people out there just stopp stressing me? I would appreciate that ALOT!

And i mean it! I think i would explode someday. Some of u may know who i am refering to some may not. nevermind. I shall not say anything more. I am just stressed up like a ball.

Being compressed. I am starting to miss sec one. When everything just started. Trust me. I really missed those days. =*(


Okayy.. tomorrow have science test and english timed assignment and wadd am i doing here? Haish. I seriously need a break from everything.

Today i finally jogged for 2 rounds without stopping. but because of some idiotic people who walked we have to run 3 rounds around the track.

I was like half dead and so super pissed off with the people who walked. bleahhx. irritating cann. then after school hadd bandd. wadd a tiring dayy..

ma'am came back. and that ma'am is like a school teacher? ex dm i think. I think i improved in my drills but still i cannot stand the hot sunn..

My feet was like burning. I almost melted under the sun. Yawnns. I slept on the train on my wayy home. Tired. Too tired liaox. Haish. Wadd am i going to do?

Things are just getting more and more stressful. Stress is piling up. I am relying on God now. I have no strength left. I am relying on Him for strength. =)

Okayy. i better go study. Nights people. Good luck for any tests u have. =P


harLow people. I just woke up from my sleep. I slept from 6pm till 12 am. so pro rite? hahax. cause i super tired cann. bleahhx. woke up since 8++ in the morning lorr.

Today.. no no. should say yesterday. Went out in the morning to the hospital to see wanying, jeral's ex flute sL, with su and wen wen. heehex. she look better. according to su..

she cann be discharged liao. I wonder how it feels like to have ur lungs collapsing. so scary lorr. haiyo. must pray for her. she still look quite ill.. met the flautist downstairs..

then me and su lynn pei wen wen go changi airport. ate our lunch there. hoho. su ate something that she didnt want to eat. so diao didi. -__-'''

me and su went back down to somerset to shopp. cannot sayy shopp for wadd. hohoho.. su wanted to save money but she ended up spending all.

haiyo.. and su is so small cann.. i stand beside her like i am her sister like that. lolx. shall meet her at potong again on tues. nevermind. we meet almost everyday..

okie. i better go and try to sleep before i get eyebags. night night people..


I cann feel myself drifting away from moi church people. But yet i still want to be with Him. All the things are just going so so wrong.

But.. I cann feel myself so stressed out. I know. It is all my fault. I didnt turn to him. I didnt rely on Him. All that i do was struggle on my own.

I am just so unrepentant. My life has been filled with man's voice. I cannot hear God's calling. I did not stop and listen to wadd He has for me.

I really want to find back my lurrve and passion for Him. I really want to fall into His embrace again. But there are things holding me back.

I dunnoe wadd are those. I have yet to find out. Lord, shine the light on my ever wandering heart. I am lost again. Lead me back, shepherd of my soul.

I am slowly fading away. I really am. Nothing seems to interest me anymore. I am falling into little bits and pieces. Lord, pick me up and place me back together.

Pray for me.


HarLow people. Today has been quite a tiring day ferr me bahhx. Hahax. Well, went out with quite a number of people. 9 i think.

Yes. And i missed Sly's advertisment. Like how great right? Okayy. Let me try to recall their names. Irene, Charlotte, Bryan, Samantha, Pamela, Sylvia, Jessica, Mary-Ann, and me!

Hoho. Yess. Hahax. And we took lots of funni photos. Managed to buy present. Bought converse shoes. $49.90. Quite cheap larrhx. Heeheex.

Irene is so ke aii cann. Hahax.. Everyone was laughing like madd. i am waiting for irene to post the pictures up then cann save in my com. Yeahh!

I really think that God's love is starting to spread in Spore. Cause most of the peepx i went out with are CHRISTIANS. AMEN! Oh yea..

I am happy today. I am in a good mood!


Didnt update fer quite a long long time. Life has been very tiring these few days sia. Yesterday was total torture. 4 hours of drills under the hot sun.

Whoosh! With my heavy french horn oso. Wahh.. But i think now my arm muscles are stronger and i think i burnt quite a lot of fats too. Hohoho.

I am sucha vain gerr. hahax. Anyway, i learnt sampan turning. At first it was like so hard to learn but then after a while. it became quite fun! Woohoo!

Sampan turning 4 check 1, 2, 3 turn 1 turn.. :) hahahax. went to macs with lydia again. Hohoho. Super farni. Was like looking for sulynn and wenyu.

then cannot find them. suddenly they popped out of nowhere. Hahahax. miss sulynn so much sia. Lurrve messing up her hair :P..

i din go school today. Woke up with a fever. I think i am like so damn weak cann. And my muscles are aching like hell. Pain sia. :( but still okay.. :)

Oh.. i better go revise homework le. :) take care people. God bless.


Induction ceremony wasnt exactly funn. Although i have to say i enjoyed myself during the ceremony itself, but the talk after that was depressing.

The leaders called the whole bunch of us in for a lecture. I admit. I am guilty of many things. I admit i am those ppl who will pon band.

But now, i am ready to commit myself wholeheartedly to band. I am ready to practise hardd and aim for gold for the syf.

Sorry to all the leaders. Sorry to the rest of the band members. everything is really going wrong. Just when my passion came back, this hit me so badly.

God bless me with the strength and perseverance to continue on.


this has been a super hectic week for me. School band home. this is my schedule every single day. Almost everyday i have band. Super tired but fruitful.

I realised that actually my passion for band has came back once again. I lurrve to play french horn. I lurrve to perform. I lurrve to glorify God's name.

God has been a faithful God. He has provided me with strength to move on. After band, i would feel very tired. Nevertheless, God blessed me with strength to carry on.

And i really wanna affirm Patricia for a significant improvement in her relationship with God and her prayers too! Patricia, miss you too..

When things get difficult, when u feel weak, that is the time when God appears strong and gives u all the strength that u need. Do not be afraid for He will be there to support u.

Tomorrow is induction. Know a number of sec ones le. Bernice is super ke aii. ahahax. her letter very cutee oso. I better go reply letter le.. :)


HarLowx to all my darlings out there! Wanna wish u all a happy new year! Cast away all ur unwanted memories and live a full life afresh. :)

Anyway, my new year isnt a happy one. I fell and i am disfigured. There are scratches on my chin now. Super err xin. Ahh. How am i going to school?

I believe God will bless me and it will recover nicely. God has a reason for making me fall rite? And i really wanna thank pat, Yiyou and shepherd for coming down to my house.

They came to visit me. Thanks guyyx. Hohoho. :) really happy. My fanfic is now moving on smoothly. If everything continues to go on like this, i think i cann end it like one week after school reopen.

Chalet was great. Hadd funn with all the seniors. They super horny cann. Esp Eyin! And i never knew that Liwen was so farni. Hohoho..

And Juanzhen oso very de ke aii. And Lydia's frens oso very cute.. And that one that surname is tan one is not badd.

Okie. Crapp. Shall end here while i go sleep. Super late le. Take care peepx. and see ya soon!! :)