You know the feeling of being at peace? Like, you are so comfortable with this stage of your life that you don't want to change anything? That's what I am currently feeling right now. Somehow it feels so weird talking about such stuff on this blog. Maybe cos fallenapart.bs.com has always been a place where it's rants and daily updates about my life but it never really contained what I feel inside? Well, I doubt many read this blog now, so doesn't matter, can say what I want to say. HAHAHAS.

I don't know if it's the holiday mood getting into me? Cos I was rushing temporary assignments the week before and all, and now it's like a little short break before I head on to official admin job where I will work a routine of 9 to 5. It feels good, especially these few days. I have been meeting people for lunch, like going down specially just to have lunch with them. And trying to find dates with people that I wanna meet up with for the longest time ever. It feels good. (: And the rest of the time, I just spend it fangirl-ing and doing the things that I like.

Thought about quite a bit of things these few days. It has been the computer and me for majority of the time spent at home. Looking at people's lives (yes, I mean stalking people's blogs) and how they view things have broadened some of my perspectives.

Honestly, 2010 has just started. But it already feels like it is going to be an awesome year for me. Cos at least I think for me, this January, I grew quite a bit. Felt a little more responsible towards my family. Like, I should show more care and concern for my parents. I will date them out now (like how I date my papa to go shop at chinatown but he wasn't free.) And I will be dating my mama out for shopping too! :) I also felt a little more appreciative towards my friends. Like, the things that they do, are becoming more and more precious to me, more and more magnified in my life. And I am really thanking such angels in my life yknow.

I became more at ease with myself now. Think those who know me well should know, I am not really very good at spending time with myself. As in, I have been alone most of the time in my childhood days that it has became like, I became afraid of loneliness? It's kinda like that. But now, I found the joy in spending time alone. Just listening to music and reading a book. That can be one way that I spend my afternoon. Having lunch alone whilst reading a book. Never saw the joy in doing that, but now I see it :) It's a good feeling, really :)

And of course, those who have facebook should know. I have also become a mega big fangirl.

HAHAHAS I totally have awesome friends yeah?

Okay, going off to watch my TV drama now :) Have an awesome weekend darlings! I hope I will have an awesome weekend too! My 200310 dream! MAKE IT COME TRUE BABY! :)

You know the feeling of being able to depend on someone? Like you are able to lean on that person no matter what happens? I have always liked that type of feeling and I have always wanted to be that type of friend to my friends. Like no matter what happens, they can depend on me to be there for them, for them to seek comfort and all.

While it is easy to say all the sweet words "I'll be there for you" and all, when it comes to the real thing, many people will just walk away upon seeing your sad face because they just don't know what to do (or so they claim). I have been taught, through the hard way, that all will fail someday. But I honestly do thank God that He has placed so many angels in my life, who showed me that, even when they do fail sometimes, they are 99.9% there for me all the time. And on those times when they are not there, it just means that it is time for me to get up on my own and not depend on someone to heal my wounds yeah? :)


Life has been pretty fulfilling these few days. Maybe because I have been signing up for classes these few days and it feels good to have an aim in life yknow? Not just the usual studying aims, but aims to improve and better yourself. Learning dance, something which I have wanted to learn since Secondary 4, starting from 29th Jan :) Though it's like a one-song thing, it's a start! Will try to continue the hip-hop classes if possible! Learning Korean starting from next Monday onwards! So exciting!

Work has been cool too, learning new stuff about things that I never knew last time. Rose cut diamonds, tourmalines and what nots :) And of course, heart to heart time with Pinghui was something that was unexpected too! :D


Now, my short term aim, is to earn enough (and more) money for Korea trip that's tentatively in May :)

Yes yes Poryee, my secret stalker, I AM FINE! tskkk believe me once will you? REMEMBER TO DATE ME OUT BEFORE YOU ENLIST~~ (must shout like you) HAHAHAHHAAS.


Okay, sleepy time soon after uploading pics!

Well, the next best thing is that they are good friends with each other and there are so many Eunhae moments for you to capture. Donghae is in this picture, along with Hyukjae (better known as Eunhyuk!) So cute right the 2 of them. Aish, my fav fav of the lot. (:

Okay, I am supposed to post pictures of my life up on my blog but honestly, this is what my life has been all about these few days. Maybe just cos I want to chiong finish everything before I start work officially. Thinking of going into tuition-ing after finishing this temp assignment. Need the cash flowing into my bank account man. It is looking quite pathetic after me signing up for the dance class. Aish. Still got one more to sign up for. Ponders- Really wanna learn. :)

This is my current facebook status and I am liking it a lot. (:

I am surrounded by cute (faraway) guys everyday, surrounded by cute friends who cheer me up by bringing back past memories of our secondary school days, surrounded by bitchy friends (yes sushuen that's you) who bitch to me about totally detestable people stealing our love, surrounded by fellow fangirls who hyperventilate along with me when I fangirl, surrounded by enthusiastic friends who spontaneously signed up for dance classes with me, surrounded by wonderful family who is fangirling alongside with me!

Tell me tell me. This kind of life, why sad? There is no time to be sad.

To all my fan-tastic friends out there, thanks for always being a pillar of strength for me. All the time :) And, though words may not be exchanged often between us, I know yall care. Thanks, really! :D

I think, this statement makes absolute sense. (y)

I am really tired and totally have zero energy to fangirl or update my blog. (But I may gain back the energy after I bathe, or not) So leaving you people with a picture of my boy :) Why you so cute luh. Mega love you you you. And the other 12 too :)

Quoted from Zhen, "I'm good on my own".

Added with my words, "I'm good on my own, especially with Suju with me :)"

Goodnights kids! Pictures soon, promise.

I like the feel of this picture. It speaks to me.


Made a really crazy decision. But I am really looking forward to it yknow :) But now I need to decide which seats to take. Sigh. Oh God, just drop a hint please?

Off to sleep. Sleep tight darlings!

I am honestly damn sleepy now. But I don't know why I am just too lazy to climb to my bed. Hahas. Lousy excuse I know. But I am not fangirl-ing tonight leh. What a good girl. "My life is now complete" is a phrase that I keep using nowadays! HAHAHAS cos of the good food that we had during work cos there was reception, my life was complete. Cos of the champagne that was available cos of reception (again), my life was complete. Honestly, the job is quite tiring cos it forces you to wear a smile every moment and greet people that you sometimes don't wanna greet? But I guess it is really a whole new experience and I'm starting to enjoy it.

Let's just hope I get the admin job okay. The pay is (y) the best :) Today was just Meet-a-friend day. Saw so many familiar people around. No one close, but hi-bye friends I saw a lot.

Okay I am sleepy. Should stop trying to bluetooth my high class photos. Show you all next time then! Till then, it's sleepyland with haehyukbumkyu! Heehee i am greedy :P



Heehee it's time for some cute guys spam! I am updating from my computer so there are limited pictures of the cute four that I absolutely adore. So please just make do with these pictures till I am not that lazy to update from my lappie :)

Firstly, Kyuhyunnnnnnnnnn!


Honestly, he has a to-die-for voice and absolutely cute face :) And of course a very cheeky character. Aish, look at what watching too much korean variety shows has done to me. I am speaking as if I am their friend. HAHAHAS. But ohwells. His voice is just mega sexy okay. One of the four that I love!

Next up! Lee Donghae and Kim Kibum! Haiyo these 2 are just :)

Got see so cute guys before nottttt! :) Absolutely hot to the max please. Kibum totally has a like-able face and you totally just melt when you look into his eyes. Okay, don't get me started on Donghae cos I doubt I will be able to finish typing by tonight. So I shall leave my fangirling of Donghae till some other day. Maybe the day when I sleepover at Celeste house :)

What is the next best thing about having 2 cute guys that you like?

This is my 900th post in this blog. Wow, quite fantabulous. Koped this picture from J's blog.

Darlings, just want yall to know that I really love you girls loads alright? :) No matter how we have changed over the past few years, for the better for the worse, I know my love for yall hasn't changed one bit :) In fact, I think it grew to a bond that's more than friends.

I am really thankful that there are people around me who I can be so comfortable around. There is no need to hide my emotions, or tolerate things that I have no wish to tolerate. It's like, no matter what else goes on in my life, I know I have you girls to fall back on and cry to yknow? Even if we haven't been talking very much, when I see you people, I know it's home :)


Love you babes a lot and my dearest Manyu and Cel yeo too :)

What can I say. Friends like these, 可遇不可求 (:





There has been way too much fangirl-ing on my blog and way too little pictures of my face! So here's one picture to wish yall HAPPY NEW YEAR :) Hopefully 2010 will be awesome and kick-ass for all my friends and anon readers out there!

I promise I will upload my Taiwan trip pictures soon!

Okay la, not soon. Let's set a date. Let's see, Tuesday kay? My weekends are terribly packed :) Which I like of course. Flea later with Pinghui and Simin, maybe dinner with Yanhui. Flea on Sunday with Celeste and Audrey. Wah can't wait. So much flea-ing. Going to spend all my money and STOP ONCE AND FOR ALL. So that I can concentrate on saving money for my trips this year :) I am absolutely serious hor :) Don't think I say only. Excited for me not. Inez lau leh, going to save money.


Sometimes I really think I am talking to myself cos I doubt people actually do read my blog. But ohwells, let's just rant. It's 2.36am in the morning. I can't think straight anyway. HAHAHAS. Oh, and monday there's interview with Pinghui for some jewel promoter job. Hope I get it. Earn money baby :) Money money come to mommy! :)

Okay, I am going off to .. I don't know fangirl I think.


Sian, my life is a slug okay. Everyday eat sleep wake up fangirl sleep. Wah is major slug life but I kinda like it cos I know I will miss it when I am working. Aish. People are just not contented.


OKAY ending off with Leeteuk has the awesome-est character :) Kyuhyun has the awesome-est voice that I absolutely adore! Donghae has the dance moves that makes me go AWWWWW. The interaction among the members are just so damn freaking funny. And damn sweet luh. Okay please join me in this craze :) Cel is going to kill me cos she will accuse me of stealing her hae away. HAHAAHAS Whoops cel! Okayokay enough of a fangirl.


Signing off,
Slug and crazy fangirl :)