The worst form of pain comes by when the person who is hurting you thinks it's perfectly normal to say those words and thinks that there's nothing wrong in saying those words.

Apology doesn't come because you think that those words won't hurt you yourself. The fact that those words, armed with sharp blades, have already pierced through the heart of another, is something that ought to be dealt with isn't it? Everyone has different tolerance level towards pain, I mean, both physical and emotional pain. If I use my standard of endurance to judge everyone, I'd probably be apologizing to every single person.

The harm that is done is judged based on what the other person can endure. It shouldn't be based on your own standards.

Just because you think that there is nothing wrong in saying "I hope that my future wife will be XXXX" doesn't mean that I don't get hurt hearing that very same statement from your mouth. Do you know what does that statement above imply? It simply implies that I am not there yet, under the standards that you have set for your future wife. Therefore, I am not of enough calibre to be your future wife. Maybe, you should go ask your girl friends to evaluate how hurtful is that statement.


To whoever is out there reading this post, don't feel unjust for me or don't feel that I'm unreasonable. Whatever it is, keep your comments to yourself. I am just posting this to get it out of my system, and maybe hopefully the intended party will read it.



But more importantly I just want to say thank you to friends who care. A particular one, who saw right through my facade at the bus stop. Once she boarded the bus, she messaged to ask if I was okay cos I simply just looked different even though I smiled and rolled my eyes at her boyfriend (which was usual). Thanks for being able to see through the strong front I was keeping up with in school. Your message nearly drove me to tears :) Thanks.

And also to her boyfriend, for claiming that he kena whack by the bus door purposely just to make me smile. (Though I think he was not so sensitive to realise that I was upset and I think it's just an excuse for his clumsiness) But all in all, thanks for at least trying to fabricate a story that made me smile :)


I am tired. I need to study.


"I don't have time to fight". Then do you think I have? But just cos I don't have time doesn't mean that I have to hide my emotions and be a study machine.

I feel like a cat, who's hiding in a corner licking her wounds.


Will recover soon enough. Till then.

为你抄笔记 为你织围巾 你夸我细心
靠窗的位置 奶茶要少冰 我帮你留意
专属的雨衣 晚安的简讯 是你的贴心
一直以为 永恒的爱 就是你

怎麼最近你 对我很安静 却对她细心
不再有卡片 没离线讯息 冷漠得彻底
有人说长大 爱就会变形 只剩下回忆
直到那天 你的缺席 才相信

原来你的心有空隙
她才能轻易地占据
我没本领 我不争气 假装不在意
原来我的心有空隙
还留著有你的记忆 Woo``
眼泪是我 爱情的纪念品

I like the way this song plays out.

我，恋上了幸福的感觉。
恋上了一个人也可以很幸福的感觉。
我喜欢幸福的感觉，喜欢那一种暖暖的感觉在心里川动。
不一定要有他在身边，
一个人读者喜欢的爱情小说，
写着自己创作的爱情小说，
那股暖暖的幸福感觉，又浮现了。

最近的日子，好忙。 应该说，这两年来，好忙。
好久没有静下心来，去向一个故事的构造，人物心情的起伏。
也好久没有好好的读一篇值得欣赏的网路小说。
只能说，真的很可惜。
可是，现在，我又找回了写小说，读小说的乐趣。
幸福，不一定要使别人给于你的。
独立吧。 在自己的生活中找寻一丝丝的幸福。

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P/s: Nope, no breakups, no quarrels, just random thoughts :)

Sometimes I truly wonder if you miss me as much as I miss you.

你在前面跑，我在后面追得好辛苦，好累
能不能给我继续追下去的力量
能不能为我而放慢脚步，放慢时间，腾出一点只属于我们的时间


体谅和谅解，真的很需要力量
我的存有的力量，已经在渐渐消失中了

累了，倦了，需要休息了

I shall post my homework list above the shopping list in an attempt to set my priorities straight now :)

1. Nuclear 1 Tutorial
2. Complex Numbers 3 Tutorial
3. Micro Essay outline 1
4. Micro Essay outline 2
5. Micro Mindmap 1
6. Micro Mindmap 2
7. Study for Review test on Monday - TM, Electrochem, Proteins

Okay, looking at the list of homework and that I need to fit in time to start studying for prelims which is in freaking 32 days time, I will stop shopping. SERIOUSLY. Inezlau, you need to study. No more disappointment anymore. It will be an open declaration of mugging period :)

So friends, date me out to study!



Yes people, this is the situation that I am faced with now :( There are so many things that I want to get, but there's a bursting wardrobe in my house and a dying bank account. Zomg. I need to learn self-control seriously. Let me list down what I am intending on getting okay. Need to check things out at the flea (if there're any avail, if not then buy online)

1. Zipper Bandage Skirt ($20)
2. Plain purple Bandage skirt ($13)
3. Bodycon dress ($15)
4. Blazer ($25) *
5. Bandage flats ($13)

Zomg, look at the never-ending list of my desires. Swear it's growing longer by the minute as people starts to email me back about my enquires. Sigh. Anyway, all the prices in ( ) are the online prices. So if I can find cheaper alternatives at the flea, I won't get them online. The Blazer is an unconfirmed item. Most probably not getting it lah, since I wont use it right? Hmmm perhaps.

Omg. Self-control inez.


Actually, I should let loose since this weekend will be the last time that I am shopping. Gonna block off all sgfleas yadayada from next week onwards and start my full-fledged mugging lifestyle! Proud of me? I am pretty proud of myself.

Let's just hope I keep to my promise.

Babes out there, please tell me to stop shopping if you ever encounter me asking you about if this item is nice kay. Scream into my face when necessary. I NEED IT.


Sigh.. Looking forward to the flea tomorrow with Sushuen and Weizhen might be joining us later. (: So happy! Love my PW group mates very much! Many loves darlings.

Okay, going to have a date with Harry Potter now.


I miss my Boyfriend :(