谁都知道气候会变，
更别说诺言。。
this is so true man.
hahas, just happen to notice this line,
due to my excess listening to THAT four songs!
HAHAHAS. LOL.

today(or rather yesterday) was BOSS' BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEENA NEO! (:
i miss my boss lahhhhh.
it's been like really really long since i saw her.
but it always seems like i'l meet her somewhere ACCIDENTALLY.
HOHOHOS. ahwells. let's leave it to Dad.
in conclusion, MAID LOVES BOSS! (:

okays, actually i just wanted to post the lyrics only la.
hahahas.
oh, and i fell sick once again.
it was cos of the long-term fatigue. (or maybe it's the mee)
hehheh, some may know.
let me tell you, EVERYone agrees that it's busier in hols.
WHY AH? hahahas. ahwells.
i'l take care of myself la.
and not cook anymore mee by myself. HAHAS.

okay, im going off soon. medicine making me drowsy.
nights people..


祝福你是我的保护色..

grrr. growls- im in a bad mood.
becos a hungry woman is an angry woman.
growls- im rly hungry.
but im like too lazy to go downstairs and get food.
thus i shall sleep my hunger away.

I WOKE UP AT 6 PLUS ON MY OWN TODAY!
that's like a WOW thing you know.
and I WAS THE EARLIEST SOMEMORE!
pfft. and someone commented,
the one who cant do anything came the earliest.
wah THANKS AH! boo you!
i kidnap away jerrick and keep it for MYSELF!
humph!
someone was a SHAOYE today!
but, i think she fell off the bed, did you? HAHAS
or rather, it looked liked it! :D

aye, i dont like narrating.
happy feet was quite adorable.
BUT they looked cuter when they were younger. pfft.
penguins should stay young man.
HAHAHAS. had sucha fun time laughing with babe.
ahwells, then we head off to far east..
and then.. shopped around (i saw MANY nice things)
and slacked at long john's.
and.. we went home, as unsound went off to CHOMPS.
ahhh.

okay, actually the highlight is supposed to be this,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANWENQI!
okay yeah, that's it.
hehehe.
jerrick is currently staying with her now.
BUT i will win the custody of jerrick over.
it's too cute to leave in her arms. shakeshead-

anyway, happy sweet sixteen darling! (:
and i hope you've had a GREAT birthday! ;D
lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove
lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove
lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove


there are some things that has been on my mind.
for a long period of time.
i din really get to face it for this whole time.
just throwing them all back to the back of my brain,
refusing to think about it.
running away, you may call it.
but to me, it's merely just giving them another chance.
another chance to redeem themselves.
another chance to prove to me that they are worth my effort.
but sometimes, when reality smacks,
you'l suddenly realise that it's still not worth it.
xiaohui, you said it was worth it.
till today, i realised, it is not worth it at all.
or rather, it's no longer worth it.

sometimes i really hate myself.
for doing all these silly things that are not appreciated.
i dont know what am i doing these all for.
saying i love you means giving others permission to hurt you.
Dad, teach me how to love once more.
becos others have abused the love.
okays, im just ranting away.
as much as i hold onto the line between us,
it's breaking. the only link between us is broken.
once and for all.


there are some people that i really wna catch up with.
someone who has been thinking about the same thing as me.
i miss you girl. ):
i will always be your moon when others fight to be the sun.
and i love your birthday.
you should know the reason why :D

i mia-ed again. oops.
there are many things that happened during this period.
went out alot. with yanhui especially.
ohyeah, rly wna thank xiaohui.
for pei-ing me for two whole days (:
thanks babe. it's rly appreciated!
monday was out on a city tour.
tuesday was an iceskating day.
wednesday was an ikea day.
and i'l be off for camp on thurs and fri.
woots. how lovely.
im sucha busy girlaye. hahahs.

i saw a meaningful line on yanhwee's blog.
如果当时没有擦肩而过，也不会懂心可以多痛。
just thought that this line was super meaningful.
everytime we thought we cld alr smile at smth,
but when there's a face to face encounter,
the heartache resurfaces.
but for now, im quite a happy girlaye.
cos.. things got over quite fast.
too fast for me to react.

have been reading random letters that i find.
cos i keep letters in different boxes at different places.
and whenever i read them,
they never fail to bring me back to my memories.
good and bad.
well, like someone said,
you cant only expect the good ones to come back right.
hahas. i realise i always cry while reading them.
i miss those memories? perhaps.

anyway, thankyou gohyanhui once again,
for helping me find the links ((((: beams-
thanks phwee, phang daddy, cel for going ice skating with me.
and my silly manyu for getting so touched over smth.
and jer for standing all my nonsensical moments!
i feel so loved by yall! :D
my lovely babes ((:
it suddenly occured to me,
how impt theTENofus has been to me.
at happy times, they are there to laugh and get high with me.
at sad moments, they are there to share the pain.
although there might only be one or two near me,
but, all the rest cares. i know that for sure.

to the other NINE out there:
thank you lovelys for rly being there,
from sec one till now.
those bonding chalets rly made my holidays a lil brighter.
seeing yall around in school makes me smile.
even though chalet is mostly talking, playing cards,
there was much laughter.
enough to make me smile when im down.
so another BIG thankyou to the nine out there! (:
wo ai ni men! <3

你，是我回忆里的过去式。
就想你送给我的CD,
它已经没有办法在我的电脑播了。
这，应该意味着，一切都无法挽回了吧。
可是，还是很谢谢你,
因为，我可以很肯定地告诉你，
你是我生命里最美好的回忆。
这是不可否认的。
我会把回忆收在盒子里。
偶尔不开心的时候，拿出来看看，
应该会为我的脸上添上一丝笑容吧。
(: 你，我生命的小插曲，这就是我们故事的结局。
应该也是最好的结局了。
这次，不会说再见，只会跟你说拜拜。
因为我们可能不会再见了吧。

拜拜。

let me tell you something.
feilunhai's "Ai Dao" MV is super touching okay!
or maybe it's me being the waterfall la.
BUT nevermind.
i cried at that MV anyway.
cos it's like super super sad.
when i saw yanyalun cried when he hurt his leg.
and how he couldnt practise together with the rest.
then i thought of him trying his best to smile on screen.
and i felt so xin tong.
and therefore, i started crying! ):

ahwells, im not known as a waterfall for nothing.
bleh! (: but i know i quite a happy kid.
my sudden moodswings are almost gone now.
unless im affected by a show or smth. (like the MV)
oh yeah! pinghui was so amazed at how i cld cry at,
wei xiao pasta and zhong ji yi ban.
cos both are supposed to be comedies.
BUT THERE ARE REALLY SAD PARTS WHAT!
pouts-

i feel happy just being me! (((:
the waterfall, silly, spastic, zihigh, INEZLAU!
hohos. ohwells, im off youtube-ing now. :D
miss me!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uFRVWHmnEkk
go watch the MV, maybe im not the only one who cried (:

TENofus chalet is over.
this chalet, we all got a lil childish,
a lil less mature,
a lil more fun,
it feels like going back to the old times.
when we had plain fun and din have to worry for anything.
although the rain spoilt some of the fun,
and we din really have a life,
but there was really a lot of simple things that made me smile.
me and phui! the mirror dance.
jer and her ben and jerry cow.
me and jer! the A word.
us and the dai di.
me, two hwees, phangdaddy! our ayyl!
mommy and her hk drama.
jenn and mag! their romantic talk outside.
mj and her noisy playing.
and etc etc.

i miss alot of things in the past.
there are many things i wished were still here.
i've changed.
there are many things i want to say.
many things i want back.
but i know, nothing i do will make me return to the past.
i hold on to the that belief.
so i wont fight anymore,
be it a friendship turned sour,
or a friend lost...

i remembered saying this to a friend,
tears and shadow, are the only remaining constants.
my friend, do you remember?

BEAMS-
IM HOME! HOME SWEET HOME!
hahas. actually i was home like a longg time ago.
just that i was on the net,
watching my KO One.
HOHOHS. it's such a lame show.
then what do i watch it for??
YAN YA LUN! WOOTS! (((:
he's sucha funny guy.
oh anyway, im not the huachi here.
if you wna find a huachi, go to gd4u.blogspot.com
HAHAHAS. =D

oh and did i tell yall,
i spent ALL my money in KL.
hohohs. din really buy clothes.
bought more of accessories, shoes and bags.
yeahs. and a whole load of other things.
and we were all so koreany and taiwany in KL.
cos i sat beside CEL YEO who kept squealing over full house.
and slept with yh who is kuku over yan ya lun.
and has a maid who gets high with me on KO One.
HAHAHAS. what a funny combi.

BUT I DIN GET TO SEE THE FIREFLIES!
im rly upset okay! and the lightning freaks me out!
i saw the worst one ever!
oh and did i mention,
the last night in KL was spent in room 224,
we were having a picnic and a casino in that room!
dunkin donuts, fruit juice, pepsi, maggi mee,
big 2, heart attack, bridge.
shakeshead right!

and jasmine is known as the fish cutter.
me and wenyi the prawn peeler.
yanhui being the crab hammer.
HAHAHAS. (((:
lunches and dinners were fun cos of all these.
hee hee =P
okays, shall update more tomorrow.
gotta go rest now i think.

many love to:
yanhui, adeline, pinghui, wenyi, celeste.
jasmine, chewy, charmaine :D
these are those who made my trip more fun!

shall update about the bad pts tmr!
YAN YA LUN <3333