this is the only method i can think of to be on time for 12aug 

baby so sorry i have orientation today so i cannot personally celebrate it with you through the amazing technology. but baby do know that i love you okay. i would want to celebrate it with you also but i had no choice. gotta go school . i m really very very sorry ))))))))))))):

LOVE YOU<3

Sometimes you just ought to thank God for the amazing technology.

It makes the world a much smaller place. Though it was bright daylight over at the other end of the globe. It's interesting to show each other our side of the sky.

Hold on tight, the journey has just begun.

I am feeling so freaking tired that I just want to rot in front of the computer and not move. I don't even feel like moving to the bathroom to bathe.

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It is only today that no matter how similar two people are, no matter how well they know each other, there will still be areas unknown to each other. And when these areas are not expressed clearly, the pain that arises from it is unthinkable.

(This was taken from my house window!)














(This is the result of too much of Maths and Physics)














(Mirrors!)

































(在最美丽的时刻，它，结束了）














It was fireworks-watching today with wife (: Let the pictures do the talking. I am too tired to regurgitate everything that happened today.



I am tired of being the one who leads, SOS.

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The Unbalanced Equation.
http://sayesha.blogspot.com/2005/09/unbalanced-equation.html
When I was in school, I loved to balance chemical equations.
But I wasn't always good at it.
In fact, in the beginning, I was pretty bad.
My chemistry teacher adored me and would not settle for anything less than making me master everything he knew.
And that included balancing chemical reactions.
"Sorry Sir, I can't seem to balance this one." I would cry out in despair.
"Sayesha, you're not trying hard enough!"
"But I can't balance this one, Sir!"
"Yes, you can!"
"Sir, look, it is almost balanced."
"There's no 'almost balanced' in a chemical reaction." He would glare. "It should balance exactly."
"Maybe there's something wrong, Sir. This one can't be balanced."
"It can always be balanced. Always. Understand?"
"But Sir, this one's way off!"
"Don't give me excuses. And don't be afraid of experimenting. Don't limit the number of moles you think can be added to balance it."
"I've done the best I could. Can't I just do the best I can, Sir?"
"There's no 'best I can do'. It's always exact, Sayesha. Always exact."
With time and his incredible patience and reprimands, one fine day I became the champ of balancing equations. I had figured out that there was always a trick to doing it. And it was always possible.

In chemistry, yes.

In life, no.

No matter how much you try, sometimes it just doesn't balance.
The person you miss may not miss you as much.
The person you love may not love you as much.
You may not mean as much to the person as he does to you.
And there's no way you can balance the equation.
No matter how many moles you add to your side, no matter how hard you try, the equation does not balance.
Because you cannot add or subtract moles on the other side.
You can only try and do the best you can with your side of the equation.


Because this is real life. And in real life, equations do not always balance. Because they don't have to. We just do the best we can.


Kop-ed from Tele's blog (:

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It is crazy to plan for your future at such a young age. (In relationships wise)

That was what someone told me on the bus today, when we were traveling home together. How true is that? I absolutely do not think that planning at this age is too far fetched. Maybe the person you have met is not right, maybe there are too many other variable factors to consider. But, if whatever that you are working for now is not for your future, wouldn't everything make no sense to you?

All the hard work that you put in for your studies, to you it would have made no sense. All the hard work that you put in to hold on to this relationship, it would have made no sense. If the future wasn't in the picture, why would you want to try so hard to go into a relationship and hold on? For the fun of it?


This week is a crazy week, with many tests. So currently I am like buried in books and the world on webcaming with my boyfriend. To the others in the normal world, I am very sorry! I will join yall soon! :P

Your boyfriend is my dream boyfriend la! I am so going to steal your boyfriend!

That was Weizhen's reply when I told her my boyfriend wants to be a pilot. Shudders- Hahahas.


I am going off to take a short nap before studying for Economics! Goodnight to the world, and I will be on semi-hiatus mode till after promos! :D
Friends who know me well should know I always MIA before the exam period! Hee (: So anything, just text me! Love!


Love makes you grow stronger.

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baby dont fret. no matter what happen i will always be here for you okay. of cos you know what i am like so ya (((((((: cheer up kay.

EXPLOSIVE EMOTIONS. STAY CLEAR.



I cannot seem to post pictures onto my blog properly.

But anyway, that is beside the point. I wanted to post a picture of myTEN, girlfriend and cel yeo. And my point is, there are just some friends who you want to keep close to your heart and there are just some other friends out there who you just totally regret knowing in the first place. I guess, it's welcome to reality, as quoted from girlfriend.


I am totally pissed and irritated with the fact that there are people out there who are so double faced, so fake, and who are plotting for your fall one day. If you are so fake, someday people will just tear off your mask and throw you into one corner for you to rot there.

Just for the sole reason, you don't know how much hurt you can cause by being double faced.

Even if a day may seem so good, such people just have to come along and spoil everything for you. Don't you dare to act all holy in front of others and be a downright bitch (maybe it's too strong a word, but who cares, I've superbly strong emotions now) in front of me.


Of course, like what girlfriend said, it is merely, welcome to reality.

When you get to the outside world, there are going to be more of these self centered people who are worried about you pulling them down, worried about you being a burden to them, and they totally just leave you to die on your own.

Just ask yourself, whoever is reading this post, if you declined to offer help to a friend just for fear of burdening yourself and slowing down your progress in learning things, what is this friend to you. Of what value is this friend to you.

Friends, are not stepping stones for you to hop on and when you find a supposingly better friend, you simply move on and carry on with life without that first friend you made.
If you are such a person, please change, else you'll just be a hypocritical bitch with no true friends around. For, someday, all your friends will see your true colours.

I think, I put this across a little too seriously. But this is honestly how I feel over the years. Whatever that has happened recently was merely an underlying factor to spur off all these thoughts and emotions that has been embedded in me for a long period of time. So yes, get a life please.


How I wish I could kick all of them to Saturn (: The world will be a better place.

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HAPPY FOUR!!!!

Finally when I've decided to watch the fireworks, in the end, I got blocked by trees. Oh damnit. How lucky right. Totally sucky man ):

I think it was fated that I didn't get to watch the fireworks today.


Because I can only watch it with you (:

I am currently at Celeste's house now, along with Suting, Wenyi and Lydia. They are making Olympics sound super funny with all the comments that they have for all the different events.

Even though everything seems so fun today, nothing would be perfect without you being with me. Baby, I miss you.

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This is the only thing I hear when I dial that familiar number.

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Now I realise how good it feels to be in your arms.

I guess, it is only when the silence of the night creeps in, negative thoughts start to flood your head. I wish I could turn back time, to three and a half months ago, where I could see the rainbow, stars and moon all at one place.


You don't know how much I am missing you.


The mere thought of not being able to see you around in school, not being able to see you loitering in my house, not being able to see you sleep on the bus, not being able to do silly and spastic things with you, not being able to go shopping with you, not being able to telepath with you,not being able to watch naruto with you, not being able to do everything with you is so scary.

Over the past three months, I've grown to be reliant on you. No matter was it having you to buy back lunch for me, or having you take care of me when I am sick, or having you around when my cramps are killing me. I am just so used to having you around, being in every single picture of my life.

And suddenly, you're gone.

I know we'll keep in contact, I know we'll still be able to see each other on webcam, I know we'll still be able to meet in December. I know all that logic. But when your heart is hurting so badly, your brain no longer process any logic.


I want you back.
Someone told me, I was too rational to be in love. I guess, I am not so rational after all. Because I feel like flying away on a jetplane all the way to USA now.




Friends, don't worry. I will be alright, somehow or another. I just need some time, a little more time for that pain to subside. A little more time for me to get used to not having him around. Just a little more time.


Screw that upcoming promos.

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