i need to install brakes on my roller coaster.
that i promise gracie (:

cej was awesome!
beams! thanks for all those who came.
thanks for putting some time away to come to this event!
i dont rly know what to blog.
ther's joy in me.
I NEED TO STEP ON THE BRAKES NOW.
okays, yall can go see charl's blog for more info.

but Dad, i felt Your smile.
that brilliant smile on Your face when those ppl received HG.
that smile i treasure alot Dad.
i want to see more of that smiles on Your face.
let my worship, my actions, my thoughts create that smile.

OH OH OH! and that very cute PREACHER!
he's so adorable pls!
he hooked pinky with me promising to back.
he said, i'l be back, ready to preach.
i said, then i'l be ready to worship.
=D he's so cute. he really made me smile.
from deep within. been long since i did that, other than times with Dad.
he assured me from deep within.
thank you, mr...whateveryournameis. =x

Lord thank You for today.
it has really been a great day.
i could feel You filling every void there was.
You opened up hearts.
i spoke into someone's heart.
i spoke into their unease.
all these wouldnt have been possible without You.
You, my awesome God.
i lay my life down to You.
my heart's small, only enough for ONE God.
so the devil can stop trying to imitate God.
you'l never succeed lucifer.

no matter how hard you try to break down my heart.
no matter how hard you try to stab me,
i will never surrender my heart to you.
for my heart is alr convicted, to the One and Only.
Lord God Almighty, You've my heart.
and im ready to go after Yours too (:
KING DAVID ! squeals-

i admit, im on a roller coaster now.
but Lord, the brakes i've installed.
i'l step on it. i'l do the best of my ability.
but when im too weak to do so,
Lord, step on the brakes for me.
jerk me out of my unwanted thoughts.
'iloveyou's in the world are failing now.
but Lord, You i can count on.
i'l make You the source of love.
im only seeking Your iloveyou now.
cos others, .... have hurt.

goodnights. im off to bed.

being truthful abt what i feel inside,
telling you the insecurity i face,
is being known as making you feel worse.
so be it.
perhaps im just the stupid one afterall.

Dad, You told me You count my every single tear.
You know why each one of them is fallen.
Dad i wish i could just break free of everything.
and just go to the place where You belong.
Dad i hate silence.
i really do. i hate it when people choose to ignore.

to not do anything abt the problem and to give up,
what's the difference?
the consequences are the same.
Lord, You spoke through my entertainer.
it hit me.
that's why im trying the very best i can.
but why are the end products tears and tired smiles?

im sorry manyu.
i know you feel helpless.
but thank you for just being there.
and lydia liao.
for telling me, im not going to leave you alone here.
lil words that made me feel that im not abandoned.
Lord, can You hear my desperate cries?
im really trying very hard not to put an ending to this.
to this unfinished story.
i know it'l be You, the Author of my life,
who should be putting the ending.
but Lord, there are times when i even feel,
im not even worth a hug.

Dad, You know all my emotions.
tears, shadow, You the remaining constants of my life.
i've had enough of silence, not silence from You.
perhaps im the only one who feels the pain.
is it time to say the two words?
Dad, im drained of all strength.

i just wna disappear from the world,
it wont make a difference to you anyway.

once entwined, now separated.

thank you Dad.
that assurance today by nikita (:
it made me smile.
i squealed in joy in class during amaths.
i got back closer with ppl whom i drifted with. and drift from some.
lyd, thank you babe.
your msg brightened my nights.
perhaps we drifted, but hey,
God paved our way. and we found our way back,
into each other's lives (:

flichu, you silly girl.
i love sharing lessons with you.
you make me feel comfortable deep within.
i love each of your silly smiles

leong yu qian! YOU IDIOT!
you were supposed to date me out how long ago?!
and you're still not dating me out!
pfft. i bet you just want me to date you out first! xP

mujia! we werent exactly that that close.
but thank you for telling me bits of your life (:
you're one dear that i hold close to me now.
i love you girl.

babygirl (: i love talking to you aye!
although i usually just pout and whine.
there were heartfelt secrets shared too =D
i chose a glass vase aye. glass heart, you broke it.
you're my correction tape! liquid away the sadness.
and my HIGHLIGHTER! highlight the happiness.
thank you, you've been great (:

yiying! my babybrother!
thank you for telling me.
you assured me, thank you dude =D
i'l remember all the happy times for you.
and forget the sad times for you. ((:


you picked up a knife,
and stabbed it right into where you belonged.

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你
where's this person who fits this song?
you went missing. or maybe i was the one who went missing.
no matter what, i miss you.

presenting to you: RHD 2006!!
[preview only] MORE TO COME!

TENOFUS! i love them.
my family in school.
it just seems to impossible to be unhappy ard them.
they comfort me in a special way.





MY MOST SPAS BABYBOY (:
she looks prettaye today(yesterday).
im hot la. even a malay is interested in ME(indian) =D

VOTE FOR WANPING! propaganda tool! =D
she has great leadership skills, and she's PRETTAYE!

MY HOT ONE! eyecandy pls =D
she's ohso prettaye and hot.
and she's sexaye too!!














CELESTE YEO aka ROSEMARY!
can you like pls stop shaking your leg? pfft
she can even shake her leg while wearing saree.
pro not =D



FLICHU! my beloved one =D
i love her spas smiles,
cos it brightens up my darkest moments (literally)















WIFEY! i love her! (she's the best wife you cld ever find)
she can comfort me, she makes me smile (:

MANYU! you're so prettaye today! like finally! you know that i love you dont you (: therefore there's no need for words alr.!

JOEYCHAN! my lovely darr. i miss you alot alot la! and i finally got to take a photo with you despite your dropping saree. I LOVE YOU GIRL (:

SECRETPARTNER! babygirl! you have the access to my secrets. dont leak them out okay. i love you. we're fellow INDIAN secret partners. let's talk in TAMIL (:

okays, the rest, im like off to upload into imagestation.

till then! toodles`

these few days have been relatively tiring.
haven really been on my right mind.
perhaps it's just the side effects of tears.
oohs, there's this lovely that i wna mention.
CHRISTABEL! hahahs. she's so adorable pls.
she like dont even know me,
then she saw me kinda down.
she was like dont cry, i give you tissue.
HAHAHS. =D she made me smile.
she wont see this i guess, but that small action helped.
thanks babe (:

the most random ppl brighten my day these few days.
hahahs. such as..some weird ppl, malayahbeng etc.
i realise a smile from someone can make me smile too.
malayahbeng was so random today.
ohwells. she made me roar in laughter.
and kneeled down in the mrt station.
HAHAHAS. i know she wants my height la.
YOU SHORTIE =x hehehe.

sometimes this journey gets a lil too tiring.
i chose to walk behind, as a shadow.
there are times when i feel that way.
why do i have to forget all my troubles when someone is upset.
forced to forget.
but i found out my answer,
becos when i love that person,
i'd love to see him/her smile =D
has always been this way since last time.
but this time, i still choose to follow as a shadow.
i guess, i'l make a really good shadow.
but i wont leave you.
this is a promise.

okays, im feeling rather hmm... happy now.
cos mujia just made me smile.
and partially cos of RHD!!!
woots! im wearing a saree. and im going down later.
to learn how to tie one =D

this is out for my PRETTAYE DARR!
we've lost contact for quite some time.
but prettaye, you owned a big portion of my memories.
all our silly dates.
and ME waiting for you for an hour.
pfft. (: but you know i love you so.
since a long long time ago darr. =DD
this is out for you, I LOVE YOU.

okays, off to like bathe and all. toodles`
water falls from the eyes, not the shower.

how much would you give to see my smile. nth.
the day i say au revoir,
would be the day that you've killed my heart.
and i know, the day is nearing.


did i tell you how much i love this person?
pictures of our past, memories (:
darling dont you know that i'l always love you so.
and even when i lie, i do it all for you. =D
i know you love the song darling!











the shirt was bought by the few of them.
and that small lil card with sarang hae yo on top.
written by the few of them.
grace, en, ting, sp, lily, charl, sb. =DD


















SECRET PARTNER GAVE ME THIS ROSE.
it's in full BLOOM (: i love her to bits la.
it has a fragrant smell too =DD

it's not my spiritual bday yet.
BUT my lovelys has alr celebrated it with me ((:
tralalas. im a happy lil kid thinking back on everything.
okays, here comes the longgg thankyou list

DADDY! You know how much i love You.
all the things that You've blessed me with.
all the giftings, all the miracles, and all the lovelys.
i thank You for all that You've done.
my life is made wonderful with You.

ZUI AI! my greatest blessing ((:
things can be wonderful with God and all in my life.
but things are definately more beautiful with you around.
darling, i love you <3 you're the best that i cld ever ask for (:

TEEJAY! beams- my family!
in this family, i found joy, warmth, love, hope.
when i feel blue before svc, it's you ppl who made me smile.
made me feel so much better =D
special thanks to suwern, grace - my mentors.
charlotte - my secret partner, awaiting at secret place.
sb - MY CAL!! =D

TENofus! tralalas ((:
whenever i feel down, upset, hurt,
i know i cld fall on you ppl.
when others have failed me, i whine, pout, cry at you.
yall never once complained.
I LOVE YALL =D

ADELINE! my girlfriend! =D
dearest, you make my class time so much better.
with you and your silly actions.
you make me look forward to going to school.
prettaye, i love you (:

FLICHU! my sister in Christ.
i hold you close to heart. for i know i can lean on you.
when im facing a test, i know who to turn to.
becos we share the same Dad, same love.
friendship that will last FOREVER! =D

MANYU! my one and only manyu!
when im upset, you do silly things to cheer me up.
when im angry, you nudge me and tell me to let it go.
when im happy, you get drunk on air with me.
a friend like you is worth my all.

LYDIA! my laupo! who flirts around.
you make my band life far much more interesting.
you make me smile at all your silly words.
dont worry dear, i wont divorce you (:

HORN SECTION! my horny family.
rahahahs. =DD all the horny jokes and convo.
our memories as a section.
CEDAR BAND! my musical comfort zone!
we've been through very much together.
all the competitions. (:
WE ACHIEVED OUR BREAKTHRU! GOOD JOB! ((:

i hope i din leave anyone out (:
OH YEAHS malay beng! you were funny too (:
and you helped in making me smile when im upset.


i love everyone.
even if you were the one who made me upset,
you helped in making me overcome and learning to forgive.
so to all my dearests out there,
I LOVE YOU. =D
but sarang hae yo, i'l only to say it to one person (:

someone broached on a topic accidentally,
that got me thinking.
my house has rly been empty these few days.
no one at home,
so actually i come home just to face the four walls.
shrugs- being the only child made things worse.
im just feeling off right now.

okays, no dwelling.
CEDAR SYMPHONIC BAND GOT GOLD!
beams- GOLD WHAT A LOVELY COLOUR!
(mummy, i stole your beams again)
it was rly by God's grace and mercy.
cos we all thought we kinda screwed.
and we got like what, 80.7.
and guess what, the marks for gold is EIGHTY!
so qiao la! WOOTS!
i love Daddy pls!
He knew how much this mattered to us.
thank You! ((((:
CSB, no longer a silver band. =DDD

the hard work we put in, paid off.
wootzi! beams- grins-
my loveliest was msging me throughout.
I MISS SEEING YOU AROUND IN BAND LA.
whines- pouts- sulks- cries-

okays, im kinda entertained.
ppl who have nice hair actually dont spike their hair in school.
tsktsk. this bung i saw have super nice hair can.
grrr. and she doesnt spike it. faints-
ohwells (: it's her choice.

ah, im feeling drained.
time to go to bed alr. (:
dreams, the best place i can go to.
other than moments of nightmare.
OH YEAH, I CANT WAIT FOR THE SEVENTEEN!
heh heh heh.

amaths lessons have never been good.
grrr. she gets on my nerves.
not that my patience is very THICK.
rahhh, but i control my temper alrights.
she was the one who started it ):
i rly rly wanted to change.
and there she comes, and spoils it all.
grrr. my test of patience.

but at least, now, in school i dont rly have the time to think.
fixing jigsaw puzzles and concentrating in lessons.
i guess my concentration came back.
jigsaw puzzles, i've been trying very hard to fix.
Dad, let me be a testimony.

things haven been going very well at home nowadays.
as in, everyone is kinda drained, and temper isnt good.
but thank God, He took away all possible flare up pts for me.
im tired, but im going on strong.
i wont fall (:

talking with secret partner always make me feel better.
i dont know why.
but i love her so.

jiangmujia, i made you smile.
you made me smile too.
i'l be there to hug away all your hurt and pain away.
i'l love all the hurt away. =D

zui ai, my source of warmth.
thanks for all the lovely msges that brighten my nights.
the light of my dark nights (:
sarang hae yo, 只对你说。=DD

to many others, i love yall too.
but, now, tired to continue on.
(and mummy aint being very understanding)
so off i go (:
SMILE PPL, come on, i know yall can do it.
<3

dont ask me to stop crying.
for you dont know what's going on inside me.
i've been thinking alot lately. not that i wanted to.
perhaps it was those thoughts that made me cry.
those thoughts that made me feel so helpless.
Dad, i know You're right there beside me.
i could feel You, telling me it's alright to cry.
sorry Dad, i screwed things up.
everything within me now, is not what i want.
i dont know.
i dont know.
i dont know.

people ard me have been telling me how they feel,
and they stop there.
giving me bits and pieces of information.
i feel like im fixing a jigsaw puzzle.
there are just so many to fix.
i really dont know what so say,
im not angst nor angry,
just..... feeling choked up to the neck.

dont ask me why am i looking so happy in school.
i dont know either.
i feel trapped.
i thought i've broken free of that wall.
but now, im retreating back in.
i dont know why. i rly dont know.


Dad, teach me how to stand on my own.
rely on no one other than You.
people dont understand, i know You do.
i know You understand the reasons i keep within.
i feel so helpless. Lord, im crumbling.
Dad, i feel cold now. rly cold.
im lost, i fear, im scared. all the negative feelings.
i wna hug You Dad, and cry it all out in Your arms.
my everlasting arms of love.
pull me out of this situation, i know i dont wna be here.
im rly drained out, what has happened these few days,
more than what i can take.
i wouldnt last a day, i'd be afriad,
without You there to see me through.
it's when im weak like this, You're strong in me.
Dad, i just want You to know,
i love You and i need You.

to all my lovelys out there,
yall have been really great know.
especially, mujia (: you can cheer me up silly.
you make me smile at the computer.
xiaohui! you too. feather duster.
hahas. silly girl. thank you my girl.
those who accompained me for prata dates were lovely.
thank you for showing me your concern. manyu.lyd.jer (:
secret partner, i need you.

the one standing high on my love list,
it's been tough on you. you'l pull through.
and thanks for the call. it made my day (:
i'l be waiting for the day you can say it all.
or perhaps it's just me you cant tell.

i guess i've no strength to continue running anymore.
no strength to continue looking.
im sorry, this time i wont be the strong one.
even the best fall down sometimes.
Daddy can you hear my cries?
it's times like these when im lost,
i run everywhere i could to search for someone.
but i couldnt find anyone anywhere.
i only had a choice, sit at the crossroads and cry.
stretches out hand-
Daddy, i wna hold Your hand and make it through.

Dad, thanks for blessing me with bryan.
silly guy who said silly stuffs and comforting words.
you helped, dude. (:
mujia, my dearest daughter too.
sb, my lovely lovely CAL.
zui ai, bestest love.
benny, although i couldnt hear you literally.
linxin, for just being there.
in my darkest days, there were still lovelys around me.

Lord, why is it that certain msges make me smile till i cry,
and certain make me feel so pained till i cry.
simple words could stab.
i hate that feeling, Lord, take it all away.
when i sat there alone, talking to You,
pain overwhelmed. i cried, i whined, i screamed.
be that cloud of fire in front of me.
lead me, guide me to safety.
You led moses and the israelities, fought for them.
Lord, i know You can do the same for me.
teach me, my heart is willing.
tell me what to do to win this battle.
i'l do it, obey all Your instructions.

Lord, even if all were to rain down on me now,
pick me up and protect me.
be my shield.
if this pain is meant to be,
i'l endure through it.
break me into pieces, then piece me back the way You had in mind.
all my days, are held in Your hands.
crafted into Your perfect plan.
i know You're working on me now.
have Your way oh Lord.
all these i pray in the name of my awesome God, Christ Jesus,
amen.


sorry ppl, but these few days, i need alot of prayers.
to keep me going on. so yeahs.
there wont be much of posting.
love.

i just want you to know, that ther's this long road ahead,
with obstacles to overcome,
and if you allow me to, i'l take your hand and walk with you.
someone told me this. where're you?

it's times like these when i feel like running away.
there was one moment i talked to God.
it'd be an awesome thing if you just send a car and bang me down.
i guess im just feeling really tired.
both mentally, and physically.
these two days have been extremely tiring.
especially after sleeping at around 3am yesterday.
it's not cos of any soccer match alrights.

Lord, i've been obedient.
but why am i feeling so drained.
i know You're there. i felt Your presence today.
but Lord, i know You know that im afraid,
im scared. the sense of fear is still lingering there.
but i thank You for the affirmation You gave me.
through Pastor Willoughby. it rly felt good.
especially in a situation like this.
thank You. You give me comfort like no other.

i felt so alone. really alone at night.
there were ppl i had in mind to call,
but i knew they needed rest. Lord, it was Your timing.
for me to kneel down and just talk to You.
You opened my eyes to many things.
i thank You for all the brothers and sisters today.
for all the hugs and love.
i feel alone, but i know i never walk alone.
never alone, with You around.

Lord, i wna just cry it all out. all at one go.
lay Your comforting hand on me.
and all those around me who are hurting.
take away their pain. let them feel Your love.
oh Lord God, i know this is part of the trng programme.
teach me my Trainer.
build me up strong, so that i may be the labourer of Your field.
hold my hand and guide me through this.
all these i pray in the name of Christ Jesus,
amen.


things have gone haywire for all of us.
and i no longer know who to tell.
i should just sit at the crossroads till something happens.
lead my path, that's all i ask of You.

my head's spinning.
too many things happening at one go.
i dont know how to handle them.
i lift them all up to You Lord.
help me tide through this.
i had my due rest. i'l tide through this.

i've realised im easily contented.
im easily made happy. if you know the right words to say.
lil notes make me smile.
a simple msg can make me feel warm.
a small gesture can make me feel loved.
that was just something random i realised abt myself.

i dont feel like saying anything more.
it's time i go off and rest. nods-

hiding in His wing of Love;

let's start off this post with a BIG THANKYOU.
to MANYU (((((((:
did i tell you how much i love this girl ?!
i love her THIS THIS much know.
even much more than that.
her lil note made me cry. cos i was alr feeling off.
but it made me smile. i thank God for sucha great friend.
I LOVE YOU GIRL (:
she's sucha lovable friend.
aint no comforter/advisor, just a listener.
but, that's enough manyu, more than enough (:
thank you thank you thank you !

linxin was a lovely too. (((:
thank you for your shoulder. when i needed it the most.
daddy will be at 3/o when you need me =D
both mummy and daddy there ((:

just when i thought all hope was lost,
You provided me with a glimpse of light.

went out with yanhui and malia today.
I DIN GET TO EAT MY SOFT N CHEWY COOKIES )):
pouts real HARD-
i love those cookies la. got addicted.
but im more addicted to the love that's all around ((((:
so keep the love going.
cos im gna need a higher dosage soon! =D

actually today was a day of joy and tears.
but then, Dad was awesome.
i've learnt something, when one man fail you,
it doesnt mean all have failed you.
(although all will fail you someday)
so, open your eyes and look around,
at the love that others are trying to give to you.
dont be too overwhelmed by that sadness the one created.
although that person may be impt and all,
just close your eyes and feel the love.
love from those around and DADDY (:

pain cuts as deep as you allow it to.
so if you choose to dwell in sadness,
you'l never be able to see the beautiful things around.
dont let sadness blind you. (impt lesson i've learnt)
open up your heart and accept more love. =D
there's always room for more love aint it.
if you dont have enough love in your heart,
tell me, i'l tell you how much i love each and everyone of you. (:

secret partner, testimony created =D
dont worry too much aye?
I LOVE YOU (and you know it)
cos you know all my secrets.

i dont like hitler okay.
he's like eeeeeyer.
i felt my heart twisted when i heard abt the jews part.
i thank God for those who had strong faith.
like some pastor. (it's in my notes)
although they were prosecuted,
but they stood strong (((:
im encouraged by them man.
they faced death, torture, and they stood strong.
if tests can be catergorised,
what we are facing now is considered small.
real tiny. my revelation =D


emotions my no.1 liar.
that i choose not to trust without double-checking.

i said i would update again.
cos today i met jenn on my way out frm pp estate.
and we chatted a lil.
and i realise how much i miss that girl.
and how much i miss theTENofus.

pinghui.
i see her around everyday in school.
my perfect malia. but she gets my tantrums the most.
but i love her to bits.
always there to poke me out of stoneage.

wenyi.
i see her in class too! my tummy mummy (:
i dont know why but her msges never fail to make me cry.
when im upset la.
cos it's her words that touches me.
we'l walk out of stoneage, hand in hand.

yanhui.
i see her in chinese class.
i love to see her smiling and in her bisexual clothes.
when i see her upset, it'l really break my heart.
i dont know why. my daughter whom i rly cherish.
someone who's always there to give me a MANLY hug.

mujia.
i dont see her as often ):
but i go out with her too. and we're just kids.
my lovely daughter who would go all out to cheer me up.
even if it means destroying her own image.
she's a lovable friend and pet know. =D

zhiyun.
SPECIAL ONE!
a friend whom i missed alot alot alot.
i simply miss going on movie dates with this idiot.
rmb QUEEN KONG. laughs-
we shall go out someday again (:

jennifur.
EHH I MISS THIS WOMAN ALOT ALOT.
cos i totally dont see her ard, other than today.
but had great laughter talking to her today.
i miss you catching me for buttons, untucked shirt.
hurry come catch me aye! ((:

magdalene.
used to eat during recess together.
but haven been seeing her around this few days.
my MORON! we used to compete who's more stupid.
=x silly but good old days eh =D
when i was smiling like an IDIOT

suting.
I MISS HER ALOT TOO ):
i hugged her and cried today. it seems amazing.
when i needed a sis-in-Christ to hug and cry,
she appeared (: i whined that she din come up to look for me.
she hugged me and i cried.
thank you for just being there girl.

jeralyn.
have been dining with her these few days.
she's someone i wna hold and protect.
and it pains me when i see her red eyes.
i love that smile on her face la (:
my prettaye dearest.


i rly miss them alot alot.
even if all man will fail you, they're still there.
perhaps not always, unlike Dad.
but i can count of them to fall back on,
to whine to, to rant to, to cry to, to rahh to.
my friends i hold close to my heart.

there're others i cherish and love too.
but this, is just theTENofus.

i dont know what to say.
i dont know what to feel.
i dont know what to think.
i dont know what to hear.
Lord, be my mouth,
my heart, my mind, my ears, my eyes.
my Everything.

im just sitting at the crossroads,
not knowing what to do, totally lost.
one thing i've realised,
the more pained i feel, the more tears come.
the 'too pained to cry' doesnt work for me.
i guess im just a kid aye.
sorry, nth but a crybaby.

i guess it's human's natural instinct to back away,
when it all begins to hurt.
im ready to back away.
but i wont, becos pain is my best teacher.
i run, i hide, i cry, i scream, i whine, i stomp around
but i wont run away from it forever.
Dad, teach me how to face it, those unwanted emotions.

Dad, this is starting to hurt all over again.
i hate vicious cycles. i feel drained.
i feel like stopping, not moving anymore.
but, i wont Dad. emotions are the no.1 liar.
when i feel weak, i know You'l be there to give me strength.
just that, now, im barely hanging on. i cld fall any moment.
hold me close to You, never let me go.

emotions are overwhelming.
im afriad they will spill over Lord.
guard them safely Lord, and teach me how to handle it.
You're the Mighty One.
Dad, it's You i seek first in my life.
even when lightning strikes, i'l hide in Your love. my shell.
tide me thru this, oh Lord i pray.
all these i pray in the name of Christ Jesus,
amen.

You're my strength that keeps me going.
my only source of eternal joy.

today was a good day out with,
celeste, adeline, wenyi, pinghui.
i was in ORANGE longggg skirt pls (:
im so prouda myself.
aint you prouda me too? i know you are.

went to catch the movie, just my luck.
i guess it was rather alrights.
with laughter here and there.
but moments of stoning could be done without.
i was sitting so COMFORTABLY in the cinema.
with no considerations of my skirt going up.
lalalas. i just love long skirts la. (im learning to at least)
corner seats are dangerous. they make me stone.

woots. after that, went out for dinner at pepper lunch.
SOMEONE sent me this,
"darling if i taste as good as i look today, im heavenly know. heh"
oh gosh. faints-
well, she din look THAT heavenly. xP
HAHAHAS.

i only ate the salmon of my rice.
shrugs- appetite just wasnt there.
all the fats transferred to her ((:
we just ended up walking around, eating icecream.
and HER SPILLING THE ICECREAM ALL OVER HERSELF.
faints- ahwells. what can you expect.
=DD

my cravings for mochi icecream is still there.
but.... shrugs- i just din feel like eating it.
grrrr.
OH, this person i went out with is a FLIRT pls.
goes around flirting with EVERYone.
including some jap guy we saw =x
pfft. HAHS. i caught you by 'surprise' though.
i hate flirts. but whye do i love this one so?


these few days i've been getting this feeling,
of screaming i hate you to some random person.
i guess it's the hatred built inwards.
oh Lord God, take away the hatred i've within me.
all the resentment, all the ergness towards ...
i dont know who. it's just a figure in mind.
all of a sudden, i just feel like crying and i dont know whye.
oh Lord, teach me how to love like You do.
how to care like You do.
all these resentment are built up against some random person.
that i think dont even exist.
Lord, do something about it.
mould me, my Potter.
teach me to be like You, Teacher.
all these i pray in the name of my God, Christ Jesus.
Amen.

me and my feather ! (:
SOMEONE thinks that im crazy. pfft.
not as if she's any sane-er.

i was away ytd on a m'sia trip.
did anyone miss me? did anyone realise.
ohwells. (:
it was rather funny la.
the school's band was quite cute.
the DM had a HUGE feather on her hat.
and she took it off, for me to take a photo with it.
HAHAHAS. so adorable pls.
she's cute la. had great fun talking to her.

AFTER THAT, IT WAS SHOPPING TIME.
actually, it wasnt that fun afterall you see.
cos.....umm..jb's pricing of goods is like spore.
JUST LIKE WHAT MRS ONG SAID.
tsk. all thanks to sporeans.
but i still bought a BLUE long skirt.
and BLUE crop jacket.
and BROWN stretchable belt.

pigs/dogs munched on icecream.
and bought secret receipe cake back. (:
was happily eating my secret receipe cake on bus.
with lydia they all.
much fun with lydia, listening to songs. (:
i love her la. =D

after that went back to school.
dined with tiffy, jer, and hqy.
was feeling ergish i guess. they were at my receiving end.
sorry peeps =x
OH, and i ALMOST got kissed by some boy.
some boy named justin. HAHAS.
(sb, is that you trying to kiss me?)
ohmy. you should see me run away from him man.
he was like, i want to kiss you.
then I SCREAMED and ran behind ahbeng.
hahahas. funny scene. i tried to call for help.
it happened to jer too. but tiffy was safe on top.
no fair. =x

we're sailing along (echo)
on moonlight bay (baybaybaybay)
......
so dont go away (so dont go away)
stupid ahbeng's version.
so gross la =x