Thursday, March 31, 2005
went out todayy.
like finally rights.
hahas. peii lichu cut hair.
ended up. there were 4 ppl cutting hair.
i din cut.
((:*
jerallyn.eva.lyd dia.lichu.
all went to cut hair.
rahhahahs.
lichu looks so gerr gerr.
lyd dia look so jap.
eva look so ke aii.
jerallyn not much change.
rahhahas.
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then went to take neos.
took neos with lyd dia.
((:*
our rings.
we are ringed to each other.
jerallyn kept taking photos using her cam.
rahhahas.
then sat outside to fold stars.
fold fold fold.
i shall burn midnight oil today.
to fold stars.
((:*
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
rahh.
i am sick again.
cann i just stop falling sick?
i hate the feeling of being sick.
i wanna go school.
)):*
had gastrics.
bleahhs. all cause i din eat lunch.
i want to go school.
i want to go band.
)):*
ye zi is sucha sadd song.
nevermind.
my life is filled with saddness.
doesnt matter if it adds to it.
Monday, March 28, 2005
decided to reply tags.
realised i never reply tags de.
shall do that now.
((:*
wanning- ilu* too! my girlfriend. we will work hard together. ((:*
meii- yeahh. our God totally rawks. and the best thing is.. He is ALIVE!
yanhui- orhh. lazy larrh. ((:* bleahhs.
lyd dia- laopo. dunn jealous. rahhahahs. have so much to say yet so little time to tell. )):*
suzanne- okayy. perseverance. interesting. rahhahahas. nonono. u are not my suzanne. u are my sorry woman! ((:* and u tell everyone your blog password. see u tmr ((:*
alrights.
rehearsal again.
not that i am dreading band or whadd.
it is just that.
we are stoning in the hall.
doing nothing.
like yawnns.
rahh. so bo liao cann.
but managed to find some entertainment.
from nanthini, kate and suzanne.
rahhahahas.
a bunch of funny people sitting behind me.
heehees. submarine.
i am a submarine.
---
had sectionals.
practised school song.
rahh.
articulation sucks like hell.
)):*
but regina was like singing for me.
but regina was like singing for me.
hahas. for me to catch the tune.
horny rawks larrh.
((:*
was so looking forward to band today.
then sit in the hall and stone.
rahh.
---
back in band room.
got scolded by leaders.
never pay band fund and etc.
haish.
sometimes people just dunn know whadd they do themselves.
okie. paid money to claire le.
feel so broke now.
)):*
shall start saving again.
((:*
cheerios. i am in a high and low mood.
tmr's band prac.
good or badd?
God knows.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
hohos.
my aiidonggua is so ke aii.
she actually called to wake me up.
sheesh.
feel so badd.
hope that she managed to get back to sleep.
rahhahahas.
my aiidonggua is my alarm clock as well.
and my clown too.
((:*
---
band.
haish. had balancing practice.
was like drawing and writing the whole day.
regina was drawing the french horn.
and i was writing down the horn family.
((:*
i cannot tune.
my whole tuning is gone.
i need sectionals.
someone. give me sectionals.
rahh.
okayy. nevermind.
but it was okayy.
wasnt feeling so pressurised.
---
hahas.
shaza is a cute person.
who lurrves my face so much.
and keep staring at me and making me laugh.
then i cannot play.
all her fault.
rahhahahs.
((:*
sir has been in a very badd mood these few days.
haish.
wadd's wrong?
wadd's wrong with everyone?
did i mention.
that derlynn chng thought that i was pat?
she was like oh my gosh! u all have the same hair.
i was like >.<
she is lame.
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went out with jerall and laopo today.
((:*
had lunch at pastamania.
and saw loads of people.
rahhahahs.
saw bihuan, claire and shuhui at cine.
heehes. they never see us.
then laopo had to go halfway.
)):*
headed down to heeren and SHOPPED.
i feel so sinful.
jerall i know how u feel.
rahhahahs.
our neoprints are so super ke aii.
we are attached.
but not to each other.
((:* ke aii.
love my meimei loads sia.
((:*
that's all for today.
today is a happy happy day. ((:*
Friday, March 25, 2005
stupid blogger.
ate up my post.
nevermind.
yesterday was a freakifying day.
had leaders' investiture.
hahas.
they looks so super cute.
especially shaza and alicia.
they looked so blur larrh.
me and jerallyn were laughing.
like some madd people.
woots. the prefects exco dance was wOw.
cca leaders one oso.
the PSLs totally rawked larrh.
((:*
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band.
rahh.
speech day rehearsal.
irritating.
make us sit down there like some idiots.
i was yawning away cann.
then when we finally play.
sir say we should not crack our F.
but we never warm up.
fine. it is our duty to warm up.
even if we werent given the time to.
haii. dunnoe.
oh yarrh.
regina blasted her way thru bar 138.
tmr. reaudi.
God. please bless me.
---
back to band room.
it was much better.
sir was tuning our notes.
and asking us to play flat or sharper.
i think my notes are quite okayy.
now must remember the lip-ing.
regina fell asleep while waiting for our turn.
cant believe this woman.
wanted to borrow instru back.
but then.
by the time i changed finish.
the store room is closed.
)):*
nevermind.
i will pray and sing the score.
i wun freak out in front of sir.
i will face the SYF pressure with a smile.
((:*
we will face the pressure together.
---
jerall*meii was sadd too.
kept drawing the sadd face on my hand.
haii.
((:* gurl.
everything's alright.
she misses cheryll.
dunn be sadd.
ur korr will be here for uu.
((:*
-huggs u tight tight.
i hope i cann playy tomorrow.
i dunn want to get out.
after so much hard work.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
yawns.
really tired today.
couldnt really wake up.
feeling so cold all of a sudden.
everything is just not going right.
not falling into place.
i prayed to Him last night.
i could feel His presence once again.
but.
i am not ready to give myself fully to Him.
i am hesitating.
i am holding back.
i dunnoe whyye.
but there are things holding me back.
i really want to go back.
runn back to Him.
but everything just seems so wrong.
everything and everyone ard me.
i wann everything to go back to normal.
someday.somehow.sometime.
i really dunnoe.
everything is going haywire.
everything.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
for the first time.
i sorta listened to the reflections.
perseverance.
there are really times i wanted to give up.
just surrender to the pressure.
and dunn join SYF.
studies.SYF.tests.exams.
everything is weighing me down.
i am growing shorter and shorter.
i guess it is really tiring.
mentally and physically.
i am really trying very hard.
who says this is impt only to sec 4s?
it is impt to us too.
it is the first and last SYF for sec 3s.
and it is our first SYF.
although we have another chance.
but it will be a different band.
stop saying it is not impt to us.
cause it is.
it matters to me.
it really does.
yawnns.
i am so super tired.
totally drained out.
just now i was still super hyper.
i guessed i used too much of energy le.
)):*
stayed back for sectionals.
frm 1.15 till 6.30.
i kept on playing bar 138.
i am really giving it all that i cann.
i am really trying my best.
i am sorry if i cannot perfect the piece.
stop saying that horns cannot play.
i hadd enough of those.
we have already tried our best.
really.
everyone came.
everyone tried to play their best.
whyye cant u just see our hard work?
i am sick of explaining.
my heart is tired.
i am tired.
when will this stop?
i want the gold.
stop making my morale low.
when i am trying to keep it high.
whyye cant u just try to compliment us once.
just once.
reaudition.
fine. i cant play.
it's all my fault okayy.
all mine.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
yes. we will get the gold.
is everyone motivated?
on 12 april, 11 am, there is a gold band.
playing at Singapore conference hall..
we have to get the gold.
we will too.
---
my legg is hurting like madd.
my headd too.
i dunnoe wadd's wrong.
everything seems to be wrong.
even my playing.
arrgh.
i know i suck.
thanks.
rahh. i am not in a good mood.
byye.
Monday, March 21, 2005
school has reopened.
how great rights.
today was a tiring + boring day.
i just cannot stand school.
rahhs.
)):* dunn wann go school.
school sucks.
thank youu very much.
---
went to visit dia after school.
went from pp to amk to tan tock seng.
and ended up.
she discharged.
lalalas.rahhs.
nevermind.
this shows that God is a fast healer.
((:*
lichuu is so ke aii.
hahas.
and syikin has a laughable face.
hohos.
((:* okayy.
gotta go lerrhs.
((:* i am happy.
are u?
Saturday, March 19, 2005
okies. i am sick of my blogskin.
like how great.
bleahhs. but i carn change it.
there is some prob with my comp.
irritating.
bleahhs.
)):*
lyd dia is offically sick.
she is in hospital now.
she better recover soon.
i dunn wann go visit her.
hahax.
so that she cann recover faster.
in order to see her laogong.
((:*
i will pray pray pray ferr her.
---
i am oso sick.
i am currently suffering from diarrhoea.
no. was.
now i am okayy.
((:*
but it is no funn being sick okayy.
bleahhs.
i bet jerall is enjoying herself.
at the planetshakers conference.
hrmms.
nevermind. shall ask her bout the teachings.
((:*
that's all.
i shall go complete the last bit of my homework.
i am a guaii kiaa.
((:* smiles.
Sunday, March 13, 2005
went to watch princess classic today.
it was nice.
but my heart just wasnt there.
no matter wadd song i hear now,
they just bring tears to my eyes.
memories to my mind.
my heart is tired.
from all the injuries u created on it.
my mind is tired.
from thinking of youu.
my soul is tired.
from trying to mend our broken pieces.
i am tired.
because of youu.
Saturday, March 12, 2005
i found out something.
we have exactly one month before SYF.
should i be happy or sadd.
anxious?
i dunnoe. having mixed feelings.
but all i know is that i have got to practise.
i am scared.
i truly am.
everything is freaking me out.
sir is coming back.
to reaudition.
and eliminate people.
hope no one from horn section will get out.
but sir said we have too many horns.
)):*
i am praying.
i am talking to Him again.
meii! i am back with Him again.
i am holding on to His hand again.
((:*
are u happy for me?
please be happy for me.
pray for me too.
let my passion for Him never die.
((:*
Friday, March 11, 2005
i am back to my depressed state.
there is no bandd.
but i feel like going for band.
music is my only solace.
that is wadd i have found out these few days.
i am tired.
tired of all these.
will u people just stop it.
i hate you.
i hate me.
i hate everyone.
just gett out of my wurld.
go away.
Thursday, March 10, 2005
today's band was fruitful.
i guess it is time to reap the harvest.
everyone put in so much effort.
now. we are improving.
i cann feel the spirit again.
although we kept on playing the same song,
the whole band perserved.
no one gave up halfway.
really really want the gold.
i dunn wann eric watson to leave.
i think we improved alot in this period.
really alot.
((:*
please let us get the gold.
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hadd lit and geog test today.
lit was okayy larrh.
geog was a killer.
although is open book.
but it is not counted.
so who cares.
school was seriously boring.
was somehow or other looking forward to band.
((:*
holidays is coming.
i really need a break.
break from everything.
maybe should just stay at home.
and heall all my wounds.
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oh yes!
shuyann commented that my hair is.
cheeka cheeka bom hairstyle.
?_?
i oso dunno wadd she meanns.
hoho. she is farni.
everyone is in a cranky state today.
including kate.
kate fell down. then she sitting behing me.
i kept on turning back to see her wound.
hahax. and her reaction very funni.
regina was oso funni.
talking about some half strenght thingy.
>.<
i think i am gonna miss the sec 4s.
the sadd feeling is back in me.
shruggs.
gambatte everyone!
we will gett the gold!
*stretches out my hand to reach it*
((:*
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
tried to download blogskins.
unsuccessful attempt.
bleahhx.
nevermind.
i completed all my homeowork le.
come on people.
say u are proud of me.
hohohos.
i am proud of myself.
today is rather tiring larrhs.
couldnt finish cooking on time.
bleahhs.
and my potato sucks.
everything went so wrong.
i lurrve my hair though.
and now i am lichuu's korr.
and wanning's boyfriend.
hohos.
---
band was okayy.
it was laughable larrh.
dunnoe whyye.
today eric watson super funni.
and regina told me super dirty stuff.
dorts.
and kate is oso very funni.
nanthini too!
i think everyone is in a cranky mood.
((:*
my smile is plastered on my face.
i shall leave everything to Him.
((:*
Monday, March 07, 2005
gosh. i sure am tired.
din go for band.
went to cut hair.
and hadd to go to sinsehh too.
i am so super tired.
i dunnoe whyye.
energy is draining off from me.
physically and mentally.
was walking aimlessly in orchard today.
my knee hurts.
my headd hurts.
everyone is just not feeling well.
everyone is just tired.
the only thing i like about today
is my hair!
woots. lurrve it.
((=
see it tomorrow bahh.
Sunday, March 06, 2005
bleahhs.
came back from the sinsehh.
went there early in the morning.
haii.
the trip there was horrendous.
i was fidgeting here and there.
haishh.
now my kneecap is bandaged.
have walking difficulties.
how am i going to sit down?
how great rights?
next week will be a busy week.
got IT lessons and band.
take up my whole week.
bleahhs.
i am scaredd.
wadd if we work so hardd.
and we get silver?
wadd would i do?
wadd would sir do?
wadd would all the teachers do?
i dunnoe.
i am scaredd.
Saturday, March 05, 2005
i hate it when people break promises
promises are meant to be broken hurrhs.
maybe that is wadd it should have been.
the greater ur hopes.
the greater the disappointment.
i am sick and tired of all these.
i no longer believe in fairytales.
after seeing wadd is happening.
justgoaway.
this is the best way out of both of us.
moving on
without each other.
i am moving on.
without u.
oh man.. i hate my hair.
bleahhx.
shouldnt have went to cut it.
arrgh.
nevermind.
i shall just forget it.
went shopping today with mummy.
one good thing about shoppin with parents:
they pay u buy.
hohoho.
((=
bought many things today.
it's time to relax after these few weeks.
test.test.moretest.
haish.
i am still pissed with that stupid hairdresser.
she cut wrongly lorr.
then she give me that bu shuang look.
wahhlao larrh.
old hagg arrh.
smackherleftrightupdown.
putherupsidedownspinheronthefan.
bleahhx.
okayokay.
back to my normal cranky self.
((=
Friday, March 04, 2005
okayy. band was great.
i lurrve that watson guyy.
he simply rawks laarrh.
i think i improved so much cann.
and he is super darn cute.
hahax.
band brightened up my day.
i will really practise.
i want to get into SYF.
i dunn want to be trimmed off.
i bet sir is going to get a shock at our playing.
he better be.
---
everything is starting to fall into place.
in band.
i cann feel the bond again.
shuuyann complimented us during band!
woots.
and the trombony and clarinety.
((=
i realised encouragement really helped.
after band was rushing time!
---
rushed down to city hall with laopo and wenwen.
to buy flowers.
me and laopo were waiting inside the station.
while wen go and buyy flowers.
she is so super sweet.
buy three roses worr.
and i bought a sunflower for sulynn.
hahax.
then rushed to tg pagar. (myhouse!)
no larrh. to singapore conference hall.
their playing rawkx.
i like the latin music.
mambo no. 5. ((=
nice nice.
many people were there.
qingyi.leanne.wanying.some ex bandits.dawn.herbf.jess.
woots.
super funn!
shouted dawn's name with dia.
hahax.
su looks cute and funny.
---
went home first with dia.
was real tired.
came home bathe.
and called jerall.
that silly gurl.
suffered loads.
huggs u tight tight.
haish.
i guess i will have to leave her to Him.
pray to Him okayy.
a short prayer will do.
a short prayer to renew ur heart.
He will be there for u. so will ii.
((=
and one thing to announce:
i am scared of people crying.
bleahh. :P
scrolldownforwaddhappenedearlier.
din go school again.
i bet naomi chye will think that i am a pai kia.
keep on ponin school.
it is all cause of stupid me.
go walk under the rain.
then now sick.
bleahhx. really wanted to go school.
but mum dunn allow.
---
yesterday was tiring.
really tired.
had enterprise challenge.
band and the sa concert.
chiong here and there.
i gave alot of ppl badd attitude.
sorry.
and to those in my cookin group.
sorry for being so luan.
i am supposed to know wad to do.
but yet.
i feel so useless.
i shouldnt even be the sales & marketing.
i am sorry.
i really am.
---
and to those customers.
sorry too.
we din have enough food.
and i am terribly pissed with people.
why are u all talking when we dun even have time?
wad the ----
grrr. pissed off.
lurrve zhang feiifeii, siying & yunnhueyy.
they super funni.
came to the back and let me taste the food.
((=
lurrve them to bits.
quincy too! she let me eat calamari!
woots!
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