A super nice sounding and soothing voice to accompany you through New Year's Eve :) He is mega hearts please.

2009 is coming to an end already! It has been a rather bad year for me I guess? Okay la, not exactly bad, moderate. Though there are quite a lot of bad memories that I wished never existed, there are happy memories that I keep close to heart too!

This year, I got to know my classmates of 08S63 so much better :) Heart you girls! I think if I were to say that we are a random bunch of girls with absolutely different styles thrown together, no one would disagree. I mean, all our styles are so distinctively different! HAHAHAS. But it is still amazing how we click, how we mahjong, how we fangirl, how we gossip and how we shop :) And an amazing feat that we accomplished is, WE WENT ON AN OVERSEAS TRIP TOGETHER! Not everyone of our girls clique but it's still amazing :) Definitely unforgettable and memorable. HEE!

This year, I got to know my beloved HOUSE COMMITTEE people so much better :) All the going out - KBox and Botak Jones and airport yada yada are mega love. Although I am not close to every single one in house comm, being able to be high and happy around you guys is just so amazing. It's like there are endless topics to talk about and endless gossips to share :) Sad that I wasn't able to make it for the gathering but I'm sure there will be more! Love you guys and I would like Nobody Nobody But YOU to be my fellow 08-09 House Comm :)

This year, there are certain friends whom I drifted apart from. Some Secondary school friends, some JC friends. Sometimes I do wish that I spent more effort in maintaining the friendships between us. But I know that friends do drift apart. But it's not forever :) I will still ring yall up when we are all free and go on dates! It's a promise :)

This year, some friends still remained constant and hold a special place in my heart! It is amazing how we still keep in contact and have so much to say to each other whenever we meet. Magdalene, Mujia, Yanhui, Jeralyn, Tiffany, Wenyi, Celeste :) When I think about friends who remained constant this year, these few names came to mind. It's just so natural to text them when I am feeling unhappy in the middle of the night, or talk to them on MSN randomly. There is no need to specially think of a topic just to talk to these girls :) It's amazing and I want this to continue!!

This year, (just yesterday) I found a friend in you! :) hahahas. And that person is Audrey! HAHAHAS! Totally didn't know that we had so much in similar and totally didn't know that we had so much to talk about. I mean, we were OG mates, we see each other around in school. But everytime I see you, it'll always be the same few topics about dance! But NOW! I know that you are a fangirl and fangirl-ing about the same stuff as me! HEEHEE :) Can't wait to go flea with you on Sunday! Love you, mixed school girl who keeps insisting that girls' school girls corrupted you! HAHAHAHS :)

Lastly, this year, I fell out of love. It didn't hurt as much as expected. No, don't get me wrong. I don't mean that it didn't hurt. It sucked, it hurt really bad. But I thought it would have been much worse. But I guess, sometimes letting go will hurt less than letting the pain drag on yeah? We were both in love with each other. But I guess sometimes, when time passes by, the feeling changes. Not that there is no love, but the love is forced away by a lot of circumstances. Time, change in character and all. It was tough to let go. Memories still do haunt me, even up till this day. (I mean, comeon, it's less than a month. DUH I will still think!) Even up till today, I know that there will always be something tugging at the back of my heart, making me hurt when the memories resurface. Then again, these memories are good and bad. (: Keep the good and throw away the bad. Like I told you before, you will forever be on the list of people who knew me well! Pardon me for not being able to be friends with you for now, cos I know for sure, if I talked to you and all, I wouldn't be able to move on at all :) When we next meet, I hope that we'll be able to smile at each other without feeling so bad anymore. Stay happy and don't get too stressed out about life!


Wow, this year is an eventful year huh. I think so too. I don't know how was 2009 for you, but 2009 is definitely a year that I wanted it to be over badly. Hahahs. Can't wait for the arrival of 2010! New beginning new start!

Now that I am single, I am totally not in a rush to get into another relationship cos I am going to work my ass off at my job(s) so that I can earn enough money to go to Taiwan and Korea in 2010! Totally want to go back to Taiwan NOW NOW NOW. Okay maybe not now, but in summer time :)


Okay, I am going off to eat now! It'll be countdown with Kang Xi later HAHAHAS. Otaku to the max!

眼泪是因为记得，不哭是因为懂得，我们都会幸福的。

Memories of 2009, I'm going to keep yall in a box now. All the hurt and pain, I'm gonna put yall down now. (: New beginning, fresh start! Please let 2010 be an awesome smacking year :)

你是我最超级的女孩
跟着我一起飞到未来


Kyuhyun's voice is da sex! :D

I am a very lazy girl. It has been like what? A week since I came back from Taiwan? But then I am just too lazy to upload pictures onto Facebook and what more say blog about Taiwan trip. Meh, actually I would love to write everything down. Afterall, it's my first trip overseas with friends :) Mega awesome. And whatmore, whatever that happened there are quite memorable.

I shall not go into details but I shall write about what I liked most during the trip.

On the day when we went to 师大夜市, which was only 4 people cos ahbu and Kelly went back to hotel to rest, we met a cute and amazing couple there selling accessories. They were so sweet okay. Like everytime I ask for discount right, the guy will ask me to ask his girlfriend cos she makes the final decision! WAH :) CUTE! hahas.


The couple is really cute because the guy was cute, and the girl is pretty! Okay no no, because they are so sweet. Like the guy came to Singapore a few times so we were talking about Singapore and Taiwan and he was like asking me about my trip and all. And so I told him to bring his girlfriend to Singapore next time :) Then he said cannot. Cos he is in army now and his girlfriend got classes in the morning. I was like FWOAH! he is damn nice. Army so tiring and yet he will still come open stall with his girlfriend at night :) Mega awesome! Though I think he is too much of a flirt. But ohwells, I think it's good enough :)

Yep, that's one memorable incident in Taiwan.

Another memorable person in Taiwan would be this girl selling handmade accessories in 西门町 :) She is a bung i think? She is damn awesome! She has her own band! Thumbs up. I bought 2 guitar picks necklaces from her. heehee. And I still do contact her cos I went to her blog to comment. She is like freaking friendly and she is like freaking talented cos she hand painted all those necklaces. FWOAH and she can play the guitar. Wah what else can you do man? I am totally asking her to bring me around the next time I head to Taiwan, which is hopefully next year :)


I was telling Pinghui that I really love Taiwan and would want to go back there for a long stay. Okay la, the stuff there are cheap (SHOES BOOTS ACCESSORIES!!) drools- But the people there are mega awesome too. Or maybe the people that I met were really awesome. They totally made my trip even more awesome than it already was :)

OH OH OH! One more person (two actually) that made my trip lovely! The manicurists who did Sushuen's and my nails! They were so cute. Especially the one helping me! She is mega in love with Show Luo and when we told her that we bumped into him in the afternoon, she was like, ZOMG why yall never come earlier and tell me! HAHAHHAS not cute? :) And they were super patient with our nails and all. Though they didn't add me on Facebook as they were supposed to, it's okay! I would have liked more Taiwan friends though.


Okay okay if you got pass all those words congratulations! :) If you didn't, it's only a small part of my Taiwan trip that I thought was the most worth remembering. The people there are awesome. The culture there is awesome. I wanna go back there! :)




Heehee, what I have been crazy over these few days! Henry is da bombz cute! Donghae's cute moves and dance moves are HEEHEE! Kyuhyun's voice is FWOAH melts! Yaye happy happy. Filling up my days with things that will make me happy! :)



Heehee, why they so cute :) Lovelove!



More more! 写上自己的名字！Heehee :) So cute!

外面，下雨了。
有点冷。
我记得，你忘了。

人，很奇怪。
身边明明围绕着喜欢你的人，
可是，我们总是追求我们喜欢的人。
人，就是那么奇怪。

Hey darlings out there! I am back in Singapore already! :) Anyone missed me? Heh. I am not going to blog today cos I am feeling freaking sick and all I want to do is nua nua nua. And needs attention. Cos mama always say that when I am sick, I act like a baby and all I want is attention on me! Heh. Okay. Off to rest now :)

Am going to be away to Taiwan for retail therapy from 15-21 December :) Will be back as a happier person!

Anything, just text me at 90978093 kay! I will call you or text you back. No worries, using prepaid card so I think it's just local text charges! Love yall darlings :) Will be missing yall!

And pray that I don't fall sick or have overweight luggage kay!


Till then! :)

有很多习惯，一夜之间没有办法改掉。
很不习惯不需要期待你的电话的感觉。
很不习惯在facebook的左手旁，已经没有你的名字。
很不习惯现在的我，和你一点关系也没有。
很不习惯这一切的结束。
很不习惯我的脖子少了项链。

可是，之所以会有这些习惯，还不都是时间累积下来的吗？
所以，我相信时间也会把我的这些习惯慢慢的摸去。
放手，有些时候也是对我们的一种解脱吧？
我们都变了。
我们都会快乐的。 会的。

天快亮了
能不能别离开呢
沉默像首悲伤的歌
捂上视线却模糊了

你要走了
也带走所有快乐
甜蜜的片段散落了
疲倦了心冷了我哭了

那流星闪过
我们许下一个愿望
要在一起绝不分离
你怎么放弃了

星空在闪烁
像你的眼泪
悄悄划过
当你放开了手
离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我

泪光在闪烁
而我的眼泪忍住
不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我

离开我了
梦醒了还剩什么
我要的幸福消失了
你的心曾经属于我的

那流星闪过
我们许下一个愿望
要在一起绝不分离
你怎么放弃了

星空在闪烁
像你的眼泪
悄悄划过
当你放开了手
离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我

泪光在闪烁
而我的眼泪忍住
不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我

有过的快乐
我都记得
回忆还旋转着
爱怎么停了
我们都累了

星空在闪烁
像你的眼泪
悄悄划过
当你放开了手
离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我

泪光在闪烁
而我的眼泪忍住
不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我




Mega heart this song.

Oh, I forgot to mention.

Hoi Lin Wenyi! Actually, I wonder if you read my blog yknow. Tsktsk. But anyway, just wanna say thanks for expressing your thoughts honestly. And for nudging me when I am thinking again or stoning again :) And for surrounding me with awesome food so that I will always be sugar high. And for your tummy throughout the 6 years for me to lean on when I am feeling upset :) And for all the late night phone calls during exams and non-exams (practically all the time).


A true friend knows when you are upset, or when you are just tired. And there's totally no need to maintain all high in front of them. Though there may be quarrels and misunderstandings along the way, it will all be alright in the end. Because you know that ulimately, they will be the ones standing there right by you when anything happens :)


Oh, and I insist on some sweetness in my life.

阿香， 你睡得好像孩子哦
从来没有从这个角度，看过这样的你。
这个角度的你，也好美。
你知道吗？
从来没有人，像你这样的懂我 疼我 恋我 顾我 黏我
不可思议的是，我竟然在你的身上，找到了我的安全感。
阿香，我觉得当下我拥有的，是你带给我前所未有的幸福。
好想freeze来凝注这个moment
凝注这个只有我们的Moment
从今时直到永永远远。

heh heh. (: Yes yes, it's by Xiu. Okay shall go sleep! J! Go sleep too :)

=/ All my recent posts have been spazzing over Xiu and Xiang. Hee. Cannot luh they are just too sweet a couple already so totally need to share the joy with you all :) Hee. So I shall post some of my pictures to summarize what has been going on in my life other than my sluggish behaviour cooping at home fangirl-ing :) There are still people who have managed to drag me out of the house to get some sunlight so that I won't rot. Teehee. :)

To my lovely darlings for celebrating my birthday!

These cute darlings came at an unearthly hour of 9am to wake me up from my beauty sleep so as to surprise me. Heh heh. Apparently they collaborated with my cousin and my mommy so that they can come into the house when I am asleep. I think the original plan was for mommy to drag me out for breakfast? But then I think I was too lazy. Okay, not think. I was too lazy. Hee.

Then Magdalene opened my blanket cover and YANHUI started videoing the whole process of them waking me up! Zomg. All the whinings and all involved. Er, if you are interested, please approach Ms Goh Yanhui for the video. Heh heh.

It was out to Kbox (where Magdalene became damn yo yo yo and Wenyi was just damn calm). OH! Did I mention?

Me and Yanhui sings: 马德里不思议
Magdalene: How come I keep thinking yall are singing my name? 马德里(Magdalene)

WAHLAU! Not lame! =/ Okay but it made us all roll in laughter I swear. HAHAHS. Oh I didn't mention the movie Christmas Carol in 3D before that. Okay, it was a really boring show. =/ But I think the meaning behind it was deep luh. Just that I don't think you need such a long boring show to bring out the deep meaning behind it. But I think I was entertaining them with my stupid actions, playing with the 3D effects luh. Hee :)

Oh and many thanks to Pinghui and Mujia who came down after they were done with their stuff too. All the efforts put it. Mega thanks! :)

And 马德里 for coming down from her class chalet :) And Wenyi for taking time off before she board her cruise to spend the day with me. And of course, Yanhui for organizing it and making my birthday splendid. Hee.


Though I still did cry at some song during KBox and hence, my crying curse is still there, but I had a wonderous day out :) Thanks babes! Mega hearts.



NEXT: Shopping with my 2 poor babes!

Went out to shop with my 2 darlings! Finally saw the 2 of you after such a long time :) Wanted to crash SAJC post prom but in the end did not due to unforeseen circumstances. It's okay Tiff, I'm sure J will bring us go club next time round. HAHAHAS :) She is dancing queen ttm please. Hahhahahas. We just went around to walk eat talk. I think eating took up most of our time luh.

WE JUST CANNOT STOP EATING. Oh gosh :(

Totally just need to lose weight.

To my 2 darlings, it hurts me when yall are upset. And it annoys me even more because there is nothing I can do about it.

To J: I know you believe that love will change it all. And I know it's good to believe in that cos simply too little people have faith in love now. But sometimes when it really hurts a lot, let us know kay. Let us share your burden just like how we did last time. I know I may not be there all the time (and most of the time), but you know I am a text away. Remember how we talked about everything under the sun last time? I am still willing to be your listening ear yeah? Don't be afraid to text yeah?

To Manyu: Darling, stop thinking that you are screwing things up. I know we both tend to read too much into things, think too much and hence, cry too much. Babe, you just got to strengthen up yeah? I mean, nothing is going to change by crying. I need to say that to myself too. Thanks for always being there when I need someone. Thanks for all the "I'm here if you want to talk about it" moments. Well appreciated, really :) And also, thanks for feeling angst for me. You are mega love yeah? We'll get through! together!


And then it is job interview plus shopping time!

Went for job interview with SSS :) It was mega fun and we totally just got the job already. I am damn tempted to change to crew now cos I think crew sounds more fun. But oh wells, I will just try out retail I guess. I mean, that's what I want to do in the future. Not retail, but something along that line luh :) HEEHEE. Can't wait to start work or rather training on 25th Jan :) FALALAS.

Inez: You know what's the best perk? Discounted tickets to Universal Studios!!
Sushuen: ZOMG! I was thinking of the exact same thing! Great minds think alike!

WAHAHHAS We are damn cute :)


Ogayyy there is still today luh, or rather yesterday where I went out with Wenyi to watch 风云 II. OKAY KIDS DO NOT WATCH IT! IT IS SUPER NOT NICE! Yes, don't waste your money. Seriously :) Shall blog about Wenyi's date when I uploaded the pictures.


I think from now on it will be pack pack pack. OH I PACKED MY HOUSE OF MY STUDY STUFF! Yaye. claps- though my bags are still strewn everywhere, it's an improvement already. Can't wait for my getaway trip :) Heehee.

Okay, it is mega late now. Need to sleep already. Night night..

P/S: Sorry for the very LONGGGG summary =/



再快乐的日子，也只有我一个人庆祝。

TELL ME! Why so cute the couple! WAHLAU! Both of them make me melt like siao can :) Both are damn sweet to each other. Kns. Is mega love okay!

Introducing to you: 孙尚香 and 脩!!

Well, this is reality version: 曾沛慈　and 脩

修： 我是指，不管你是在江东，还是东汉，
我都止疼你一个。

香： 哦。 那，我也只让你一个人疼。

*urg! Melts-*
Heehee love it when she teases him like that!
Freeze this moment.
They just look damn good together!? And his guitar is mega awesome :)
Seriously, a guy's hug from behind is too hard to resist!


Sorry kids for the picture spam! I just had to do it! This is like what I have been goo goo gah gah -ing over for the past few days and it is also the explanation behind my slug behaviour. Heehee. I think only wenyi understands :)

Seriously, the show is mega lame and I am totally damn sian during other parts but then!!! when it comes to the two of them, it is MELTING TIME! Quoted from Wenyi, "You will melt into a puddle of water, and refreeze back again later." HEEHEE. :) 知我者莫若你！ They are seriously damn sweet in the show. Falalalas. And not to mention, they have been my happy pills these few days :) So glad I chose to watch this show. Cos they totally don't quarrel one? The only sad part is when he has to leave. Which is the part I posted earlier on :)

Okay okay those kids out there who are about to open their mouths and tell me that these are all fantasy and will never happen in reality, I know. Just let me indulge in my own fantasy world luh. At least I am happy swimming in my own puddle of water.


Wenyi said, idol dramas are double-edged swords. They work both ways. They make you really happy cos they show you the good side of love, but yet again, they make you sad because there is a forced comparison. Well, I agree with her, but I guess, it is just me to watch these and melt ba :) Can't really change it. Wenyi says I should date a romantic geek.



很多时候，当彼此间的幸福感觉变质了，那样的改变，可能是你我，都察觉不到的吧。
很有可能，彼此间，渐渐的，只剩下了习惯，而不是爱情。


Well, can't wait for my getaway trip to sort out my thinkings. Away from the bustling city of Singapore and heading over to the land of fangirl of Taiwan :) Wah, imagine how crazy I would go if I see either of the two of them there :) Ohwells. Let's leave it to fate.

Okay, back to watch drama and melt. The other things can wait.

香: 备备, 你觉得我是那种很需要被保护的女生吗?
脩: 阿香, 我知道你人很聪明, 武功又好,
就算我和袁绍没有去救你, 你自己也可以想办法脱困.
但是, 我不会因为你的独立, 而忘记我要保护你的责任.
在我心里, 你就是那一个需要被疼爱, 要被捧在手心的阿香.

Wahlau, it is really just mega love yknow. I think it is like the dream of all girls to be treated like that. Many a times, when we say we are fine, when we say we can do it on our own, we can't. Sometimes, it's really not about putting up a strong front (though I have to admit that many a times it is about a strong front). Sometimes when we say we are fine, we still do crave for the comfort that you are able to provide. 不要因为我的独立，而忘记了保护我的责任。 I am just majorly in love with this line. Seriously. Maybe I should go date a scriptwriter. Heh.

Just a note to remind myself, and those reading my blog, the stuff that I post on my blog, are all from idol dramas. Which means, those guys uttering sweet nothings that I love, will never appear in real life. Heh. Sorry kids. Burst your bubbles. Anyway, the thing that I love is not the guy's appearance and all in the idol dramas. It is the way he treats the girl, the way he make her seem like she is his one and only, the way he vows to protect her no matter what, the way he loves her. (:


Okay, back to watching my show. Will be back with more~

原本有很多话要说。
可是，我按下了“backspace”。
很羡慕会跳舞，会弹钢琴的人，或者任何乐器。
因为，他们能够通过音乐来表达自己的悲伤，自己的快乐。
既然我没有那些表达的方式，就把他们往肚子里吞咯！
幸福的定义有很多种。
或许，你的和我的，是不一样的吧。



阿香。。 阿香。。
我要告诉你！
我叫呼延觉罗修
我好爱你！ 我真的好爱你！
阿香， 我不要放弃你
你是我最想守护的人！
我不要离开你！

备备， 是不是你在叫我？
备备，为什么我觉得我的心好痛？
你到底怎么了！
而且，为什么我觉得你非常痛苦？
你在哪里！？

WAHLAU I watch this episode and the previous one is cry until like don't know like what. Is heart mega pain. Even if he knows the words will never reach her, he still tries to say it out! Wahlau, this kind is mega touching. And somemore the 2 of them look so damn good together! :'( Totally love their scenes the most! Shall go watch more more and update with more lines. (:

修： 我是指，不管你是在江东，还是东汉，
我都止疼你一个。

香： 哦。 那，我也只让你一个人疼。