i was high just now.
(: -grins.
all thanks to my pri school mates.
(: they totally rawked my life.
still as crappy and fun to be with.
all of a sudden i miss primary school.
where nothing is important.
except friends.
-shruggs.
maybe as you grow older.
you become more independant.
and you think you dont need friends anymore.
you dont treasure them as much.
but in primary school.
you want everyone to be friends.
doing everything together.
i dont know anymore.
the stress is coming in.
all the studies and stuff.
i am really worried all of a sudden.
all the negative attitudes.
all the negative thinkings.
mugging.
i want to get into the stream i want.
yet i dont feel like studying.
what kinda attitude is this?
id on tk no w.

i have told you to stop it.
stop messing around with her.
if you dont believe me.
suit you.
you can go get into danger.
and trust me.
i wont care anymore.
i aint like Stacey in r.o.t you know.
i wont bother about a friend like you.
you can go play around with her.
and get into trouble.
i wont bother.
i wont care.
believe me.
i can get heartless when the time arises.
i guess it is back to ignoring.
since you dont care.
why should i even bother.
you all can go around ---.
and i will live my life happily as usual.
please dont disgust me.
i beg you. (:

i really miss those days.
those rum and raisin days.
-whines.
i miss my rum.
why does everything starts to go haywire again?
it was alright at the beginning.
until this happened.
where is everyone when you need them?
they all fly away and disappear.
leaving you to shatter into pieces.
doesnt disappointment disappoint you?
it really does.
and disappointment hurts.
esp. from those closest to you.

-hugs.rum.i need a tight hug.
sabs.-waves.thanks for being here.
i see you waving and jumping at me. (:

i never expected you to know how tough it is in school.
but at least i dont expect accusations from you.
do you think you are the only one tired?
what makes you think i am not tired waiting for you?
my legs hurt.
and the cold weather made my knee hurt even more.
did you even know?
do you even bother to know?
nevermind.
will someone go with me to concert please.
i really want to go.
-whines.
rahhs.
today was a taxing day.
real taxing.
dont feel like talking about it.
if only you understood.

i never expected you to be there for me.
i knew from the beginning i couldnt count on you.
i realised it a long time ago.
i never wanted to lean on you for support.
not in the past. not now. never in my life.
i was never really there for you too.
so you dont have to feel obligated to be there for me.
whatever.
i meant what i say.
and you were the one who irritated me.
i was never close to you.
you never told me anything.
i never bothered to tell you anything too.
seriously you were just making use of this.
but i would rather it stay this way.
trust me.
i am sick of being the ignored one.
friends forever.
-laughs.
i never believed in that.
maybe. forever is possible for some.
me. rum. my family tree.
it is possible to anyone.
but not you.

will someone call me mad?
i went to sweety's lunch thing and kbox thing.
and they recognised me.
heh.i actually went.
although tired but quite okay lah.
they are rather cute.
but not my type.
still prefer my 56. (:
oh wells.
my first time chasing idol all over spore.
(: rawked.
PATRICIA TAN!
it is sad when you see the person you like leave the competition okays.
it is VERY sad.
and i am not exactly sad if i miss hist.
i dont really enjoy it you know.
(: heh.
i DONT look dead.
i am well and alive.
or else you wont see me in school everyday.
(:

HELLOOS!
i am back.
my blog is dead.
i hereby offically announce.
oh wells.
i shall update.
because rum asked me to.
okay.here's my update.
life's okay.
school as boring as usual.
and SPA.i am dead.
i did not even complete it.
i dont really care anymore.
i dont know even know why i go to school.
even friends are not worth it.
rather stay at home and sing.
(:
OH YES!
derrick got out!
how can he get out lah.
wahlao.
i was like crying buckets of tears.
-sobs.
ohwells.
let's just hope junyang will win this thing.
(: